Just before the baby was born, I was hired by The Washington Post and The Lilly to journal about my first 30 days of motherhood. You can read my raw, real, and absolutely honest account of those first thirty days on the Washington Post's website and in the Lilly newsletter.
I think the illustrations they put in the article are weird and don't really match, but perhaps that's the artist in me? Here's a link to the article. I would say, "enjoy," but people have told me they cried while reading it, so instead I'll say, "I hope you take something away from it."
Have a great weekend and thanks for stopping by!
I loved reading your post. You verbalized everything that I felt 39years ago with my first born who was always crying. We didn’t know he had colic until months later. I admire your raw honesty and self awareness. I am also touched by Steve’s sensitivity and willingness to not only be a good involved daddy but also a good life partner. Communication is so key when children disrupt the quiet, orderly life we got used to before children. While you are in the middle of it with lack of sleep it can be crazy making. With time and getting to know the little being our hearts melt. Parenting was my most challenging and rewarding job and experience. Thanks for sharing. It can help new mother’s feel like they are not alone and what we feel and go through is normal. That being said PPD is an added stress and can happen to anyone. You are fortunate to have a good mom and friends who were there for you! Your baby is a prescious little bundle. May he being you much joy.
I loved reading your post. You verbalized everything that I felt 39years ago with my first born who was always crying. We didn’t know he had colic until months later. I admire your raw honesty and self awareness. I am also touched by Steve’s sensitivity and willingness to not only be a good involved daddy but also a good life partner. Communication is so key when children disrupt the quiet, orderly life we got used to before children. While you are in the middle of it with lack of sleep it can be crazy making. With time and getting to know the little being our hearts melt. Parenting was my most challenging and rewarding job and experience. Thanks for sharing. It can help new mother’s feel like they are not alone and what we feel and go through is normal. That being said PPD is an added stress and can happen to anyone. You are fortunate to have a good mom and friends who were there for you! Your baby is a prescious little bundle. May he being you much joy.
I loved reading your post. You verbalized everything that I felt 39years ago with my first born who was always crying. We didn’t know he had colic until months later. I admire your raw honesty and self awareness. I am also touched by Steve’s sensitivity and willingness to not only be a good involved daddy but also a good life partner. Communication is so key when children disrupt the quiet, orderly life we got used to before children. While you are in the middle of it with lack of sleep it can be crazy making. With time and getting to know the little being our hearts melt. Parenting was my most challenging and rewarding job and experience. Thanks for sharing. It can help new mother’s feel like they are not alone and what we feel and go through is normal. That being said PPD is an added stress and can happen to anyone. You are fortunate to have a good mom and friends who were there for you! Your baby is a prescious little bundle. May he being you much joy.
I loved reading your post. You verbalized everything that I felt 39years ago with my first born who was always crying. We didn’t know he had colic until months later. I admire your raw honesty and self awareness. I am also touched by Steve’s sensitivity and willingness to not only be a good involved daddy but also a good life partner. Communication is so key when children disrupt the quiet, orderly life we got used to before children. While you are in the middle of it with lack of sleep it can be crazy making. With time and getting to know the little being our hearts melt. Parenting was my most challenging and rewarding job and experience. Thanks for sharing. It can help new mother’s feel like they are not alone and what we feel and go through is normal. That being said PPD is an added stress and can happen to anyone. You are fortunate to have a good mom and friends who were there for you! Your baby is a prescious little bundle. May he being you much joy.
I loved reading your post. You verbalized everything that I felt 39years ago with my first born who was always crying. We didn’t know he had colic until months later. I admire your raw honesty and self awareness. I am also touched by Steve’s sensitivity and willingness to not only be a good involved daddy but also a good life partner. Communication is so key when children disrupt the quiet, orderly life we got used to before children. While you are in the middle of it with lack of sleep it can be crazy making. With time and getting to know the little being our hearts melt. Parenting was my most challenging and rewarding job and experience. Thanks for sharing. It can help new mother’s feel like they are not alone and what we feel and go through is normal. That being said PPD is an added stress and can happen to anyone. You are fortunate to have a good mom and friends who were there for you! Your baby is a prescious little bundle. May he being you much joy.
I loved reading your post. You verbalized everything that I felt 39years ago with my first born who was always crying. We didn’t know he had colic until months later. I admire your raw honesty and self awareness. I am also touched by Steve’s sensitivity and willingness to not only be a good involved daddy but also a good life partner. Communication is so key when children disrupt the quiet, orderly life we got used to before children. While you are in the middle of it with lack of sleep it can be crazy making. With time and getting to know the little being our hearts melt. Parenting was my most challenging and rewarding job and experience. Thanks for sharing. It can help new mother’s feel like they are not alone and what we feel and go through is normal. That being said PPD is an added stress and can happen to anyone. You are fortunate to have a good mom and friends who were there for you! Your baby is a prescious little bundle. May he being you much joy.
I loved reading your post. You verbalized everything that I felt 39years ago with my first born who was always crying. We didn’t know he had colic until months later. I admire your raw honesty and self awareness. I am also touched by Steve’s sensitivity and willingness to not only be a good involved daddy but also a good life partner. Communication is so key when children disrupt the quiet, orderly life we got used to before children. While you are in the middle of it with lack of sleep it can be crazy making. With time and getting to know the little being our hearts melt. Parenting was my most challenging and rewarding job and experience. Thanks for sharing. It can help new mother’s feel like they are not alone and what we feel and go through is normal. That being said PPD is an added stress and can happen to anyone. You are fortunate to have a good mom and friends who were there for you! Your baby is a prescious little bundle. May he being you much joy.
Wow Julie, your writings are so honest, so raw. We can feel your pain. It’s a tough time to go through but you are making it! You have good support. I am a 76 year old great-grandmother who had two children over fifty years ago! Some of those same feelings you have I can still find in the recesses of my own mind but most memories are the happier ones. You’re going to survive this crazy thing called motherhood. Each day is another new beginning and eventually you will get an entire night’s sleep and feel so much better. Supporting you in prayer from miles away, I am Grammy Peg
Wow Julie, your writings are so honest, so raw. We can feel your pain. It’s a tough time to go through but you are making it! You have good support. I am a 76 year old great-grandmother who had two children over fifty years ago! Some of those same feelings you have I can still find in the recesses of my own mind but most memories are the happier ones. You’re going to survive this crazy thing called motherhood. Each day is another new beginning and eventually you will get an entire night’s sleep and feel so much better. Supporting you in prayer from miles away, I am Grammy Peg
Wow Julie, your writings are so honest, so raw. We can feel your pain. It’s a tough time to go through but you are making it! You have good support. I am a 76 year old great-grandmother who had two children over fifty years ago! Some of those same feelings you have I can still find in the recesses of my own mind but most memories are the happier ones. You’re going to survive this crazy thing called motherhood. Each day is another new beginning and eventually you will get an entire night’s sleep and feel so much better. Supporting you in prayer from miles away, I am Grammy Peg
Wow Julie, your writings are so honest, so raw. We can feel your pain. It’s a tough time to go through but you are making it! You have good support. I am a 76 year old great-grandmother who had two children over fifty years ago! Some of those same feelings you have I can still find in the recesses of my own mind but most memories are the happier ones. You’re going to survive this crazy thing called motherhood. Each day is another new beginning and eventually you will get an entire night’s sleep and feel so much better. Supporting you in prayer from miles away, I am Grammy Peg
Wow Julie, your writings are so honest, so raw. We can feel your pain. It’s a tough time to go through but you are making it! You have good support. I am a 76 year old great-grandmother who had two children over fifty years ago! Some of those same feelings you have I can still find in the recesses of my own mind but most memories are the happier ones. You’re going to survive this crazy thing called motherhood. Each day is another new beginning and eventually you will get an entire night’s sleep and feel so much better. Supporting you in prayer from miles away, I am Grammy Peg
Wow Julie, your writings are so honest, so raw. We can feel your pain. It’s a tough time to go through but you are making it! You have good support. I am a 76 year old great-grandmother who had two children over fifty years ago! Some of those same feelings you have I can still find in the recesses of my own mind but most memories are the happier ones. You’re going to survive this crazy thing called motherhood. Each day is another new beginning and eventually you will get an entire night’s sleep and feel so much better. Supporting you in prayer from miles away, I am Grammy Peg
Wow Julie, your writings are so honest, so raw. We can feel your pain. It’s a tough time to go through but you are making it! You have good support. I am a 76 year old great-grandmother who had two children over fifty years ago! Some of those same feelings you have I can still find in the recesses of my own mind but most memories are the happier ones. You’re going to survive this crazy thing called motherhood. Each day is another new beginning and eventually you will get an entire night’s sleep and feel so much better. Supporting you in prayer from miles away, I am Grammy Peg
This was an amazing look at your life after birth and I’m amazed at your honesty! I recall wondering where my mommy skills were after my first born son popped out! I thought it would all simply come to me after his birth but instead I felt strangely fearful of him, even though I thought he was the most gorgeous little creature I’d ever seen. I only had 5 hours labor with each of my two sons. Sleep deprivation is horrible! I use to think I’d hear my sweet baby crying from his room across the hall only to find him snoozing quietly. I had to deal with having a catheter the first week because I just couldn’t pee on my own but it was actually a blessing cuz I didn’t have to keep getting up to use the bathroom. My husband endeared himself to me by taking the baby at night and rocking him while I slept in the bed. And he had to get up each morning and go to work while I had no other job but the baby at that time, I swore I’d never leave my husband after all his kindnesses back then and for 34 years have kept that vow and held onto it thru any rough patches we had. I watched that first son have his first son a year ago. His sweet wife had a very rough time with pregnancy and birth and I witnessed first hand the strange things new birth does to otherwise normal women. It’s been totally rewarding to see them also overcome and make it through those early difficulties. You and Steve are amazing! You look wonderful and are a lovely sweet strong woman inside and out. The biggest thing to remember us that you’re all normal you’ll all be ok! Wishing you love and comfort as you enjoy these crazy wonderful new days of motherhood!
This was an amazing look at your life after birth and I’m amazed at your honesty! I recall wondering where my mommy skills were after my first born son popped out! I thought it would all simply come to me after his birth but instead I felt strangely fearful of him, even though I thought he was the most gorgeous little creature I’d ever seen. I only had 5 hours labor with each of my two sons. Sleep deprivation is horrible! I use to think I’d hear my sweet baby crying from his room across the hall only to find him snoozing quietly. I had to deal with having a catheter the first week because I just couldn’t pee on my own but it was actually a blessing cuz I didn’t have to keep getting up to use the bathroom. My husband endeared himself to me by taking the baby at night and rocking him while I slept in the bed. And he had to get up each morning and go to work while I had no other job but the baby at that time, I swore I’d never leave my husband after all his kindnesses back then and for 34 years have kept that vow and held onto it thru any rough patches we had. I watched that first son have his first son a year ago. His sweet wife had a very rough time with pregnancy and birth and I witnessed first hand the strange things new birth does to otherwise normal women. It’s been totally rewarding to see them also overcome and make it through those early difficulties. You and Steve are amazing! You look wonderful and are a lovely sweet strong woman inside and out. The biggest thing to remember us that you’re all normal you’ll all be ok! Wishing you love and comfort as you enjoy these crazy wonderful new days of motherhood!
This was an amazing look at your life after birth and I’m amazed at your honesty! I recall wondering where my mommy skills were after my first born son popped out! I thought it would all simply come to me after his birth but instead I felt strangely fearful of him, even though I thought he was the most gorgeous little creature I’d ever seen. I only had 5 hours labor with each of my two sons. Sleep deprivation is horrible! I use to think I’d hear my sweet baby crying from his room across the hall only to find him snoozing quietly. I had to deal with having a catheter the first week because I just couldn’t pee on my own but it was actually a blessing cuz I didn’t have to keep getting up to use the bathroom. My husband endeared himself to me by taking the baby at night and rocking him while I slept in the bed. And he had to get up each morning and go to work while I had no other job but the baby at that time, I swore I’d never leave my husband after all his kindnesses back then and for 34 years have kept that vow and held onto it thru any rough patches we had. I watched that first son have his first son a year ago. His sweet wife had a very rough time with pregnancy and birth and I witnessed first hand the strange things new birth does to otherwise normal women. It’s been totally rewarding to see them also overcome and make it through those early difficulties. You and Steve are amazing! You look wonderful and are a lovely sweet strong woman inside and out. The biggest thing to remember us that you’re all normal you’ll all be ok! Wishing you love and comfort as you enjoy these crazy wonderful new days of motherhood!
This was an amazing look at your life after birth and I’m amazed at your honesty! I recall wondering where my mommy skills were after my first born son popped out! I thought it would all simply come to me after his birth but instead I felt strangely fearful of him, even though I thought he was the most gorgeous little creature I’d ever seen. I only had 5 hours labor with each of my two sons. Sleep deprivation is horrible! I use to think I’d hear my sweet baby crying from his room across the hall only to find him snoozing quietly. I had to deal with having a catheter the first week because I just couldn’t pee on my own but it was actually a blessing cuz I didn’t have to keep getting up to use the bathroom. My husband endeared himself to me by taking the baby at night and rocking him while I slept in the bed. And he had to get up each morning and go to work while I had no other job but the baby at that time, I swore I’d never leave my husband after all his kindnesses back then and for 34 years have kept that vow and held onto it thru any rough patches we had. I watched that first son have his first son a year ago. His sweet wife had a very rough time with pregnancy and birth and I witnessed first hand the strange things new birth does to otherwise normal women. It’s been totally rewarding to see them also overcome and make it through those early difficulties. You and Steve are amazing! You look wonderful and are a lovely sweet strong woman inside and out. The biggest thing to remember us that you’re all normal you’ll all be ok! Wishing you love and comfort as you enjoy these crazy wonderful new days of motherhood!
This was an amazing look at your life after birth and I’m amazed at your honesty! I recall wondering where my mommy skills were after my first born son popped out! I thought it would all simply come to me after his birth but instead I felt strangely fearful of him, even though I thought he was the most gorgeous little creature I’d ever seen. I only had 5 hours labor with each of my two sons. Sleep deprivation is horrible! I use to think I’d hear my sweet baby crying from his room across the hall only to find him snoozing quietly. I had to deal with having a catheter the first week because I just couldn’t pee on my own but it was actually a blessing cuz I didn’t have to keep getting up to use the bathroom. My husband endeared himself to me by taking the baby at night and rocking him while I slept in the bed. And he had to get up each morning and go to work while I had no other job but the baby at that time, I swore I’d never leave my husband after all his kindnesses back then and for 34 years have kept that vow and held onto it thru any rough patches we had. I watched that first son have his first son a year ago. His sweet wife had a very rough time with pregnancy and birth and I witnessed first hand the strange things new birth does to otherwise normal women. It’s been totally rewarding to see them also overcome and make it through those early difficulties. You and Steve are amazing! You look wonderful and are a lovely sweet strong woman inside and out. The biggest thing to remember us that you’re all normal you’ll all be ok! Wishing you love and comfort as you enjoy these crazy wonderful new days of motherhood!
This was an amazing look at your life after birth and I’m amazed at your honesty! I recall wondering where my mommy skills were after my first born son popped out! I thought it would all simply come to me after his birth but instead I felt strangely fearful of him, even though I thought he was the most gorgeous little creature I’d ever seen. I only had 5 hours labor with each of my two sons. Sleep deprivation is horrible! I use to think I’d hear my sweet baby crying from his room across the hall only to find him snoozing quietly. I had to deal with having a catheter the first week because I just couldn’t pee on my own but it was actually a blessing cuz I didn’t have to keep getting up to use the bathroom. My husband endeared himself to me by taking the baby at night and rocking him while I slept in the bed. And he had to get up each morning and go to work while I had no other job but the baby at that time, I swore I’d never leave my husband after all his kindnesses back then and for 34 years have kept that vow and held onto it thru any rough patches we had. I watched that first son have his first son a year ago. His sweet wife had a very rough time with pregnancy and birth and I witnessed first hand the strange things new birth does to otherwise normal women. It’s been totally rewarding to see them also overcome and make it through those early difficulties. You and Steve are amazing! You look wonderful and are a lovely sweet strong woman inside and out. The biggest thing to remember us that you’re all normal you’ll all be ok! Wishing you love and comfort as you enjoy these crazy wonderful new days of motherhood!
This was an amazing look at your life after birth and I’m amazed at your honesty! I recall wondering where my mommy skills were after my first born son popped out! I thought it would all simply come to me after his birth but instead I felt strangely fearful of him, even though I thought he was the most gorgeous little creature I’d ever seen. I only had 5 hours labor with each of my two sons. Sleep deprivation is horrible! I use to think I’d hear my sweet baby crying from his room across the hall only to find him snoozing quietly. I had to deal with having a catheter the first week because I just couldn’t pee on my own but it was actually a blessing cuz I didn’t have to keep getting up to use the bathroom. My husband endeared himself to me by taking the baby at night and rocking him while I slept in the bed. And he had to get up each morning and go to work while I had no other job but the baby at that time, I swore I’d never leave my husband after all his kindnesses back then and for 34 years have kept that vow and held onto it thru any rough patches we had. I watched that first son have his first son a year ago. His sweet wife had a very rough time with pregnancy and birth and I witnessed first hand the strange things new birth does to otherwise normal women. It’s been totally rewarding to see them also overcome and make it through those early difficulties. You and Steve are amazing! You look wonderful and are a lovely sweet strong woman inside and out. The biggest thing to remember us that you’re all normal you’ll all be ok! Wishing you love and comfort as you enjoy these crazy wonderful new days of motherhood!
It has been years since I had my babies, but I understand your frustration. My first child was a breeze; slept through the night without a problem. When I had my second child 7 years later it was a different story. He never slept through the night until he was two! I thought I was doing everything wrong. I was so sleep deprived that I felt like everything in my life was crashing. I had to learn to carve out time for myself whether it was to leave the baby with my husband, a sitter, or grandparent. The guilt was the worst; why is this child being so difficult.
Years have passed and both of my children are adults. My daughter is still laid back as she was when I brought her home from the hospital; my son is more on the go and full of energy as he was when I brought him home. So…. try to relax and remember this too shall pass. You are a creative genius and doing nothing wrong with the baby. (p.s. my son still remembers those nights when I sat in the rocker at 2:00 a.m. singing Twinkle, twinkle little star and trying to get him to go back to sleep.
It has been years since I had my babies, but I understand your frustration. My first child was a breeze; slept through the night without a problem. When I had my second child 7 years later it was a different story. He never slept through the night until he was two! I thought I was doing everything wrong. I was so sleep deprived that I felt like everything in my life was crashing. I had to learn to carve out time for myself whether it was to leave the baby with my husband, a sitter, or grandparent. The guilt was the worst; why is this child being so difficult.
Years have passed and both of my children are adults. My daughter is still laid back as she was when I brought her home from the hospital; my son is more on the go and full of energy as he was when I brought him home. So…. try to relax and remember this too shall pass. You are a creative genius and doing nothing wrong with the baby. (p.s. my son still remembers those nights when I sat in the rocker at 2:00 a.m. singing Twinkle, twinkle little star and trying to get him to go back to sleep.
It has been years since I had my babies, but I understand your frustration. My first child was a breeze; slept through the night without a problem. When I had my second child 7 years later it was a different story. He never slept through the night until he was two! I thought I was doing everything wrong. I was so sleep deprived that I felt like everything in my life was crashing. I had to learn to carve out time for myself whether it was to leave the baby with my husband, a sitter, or grandparent. The guilt was the worst; why is this child being so difficult.
Years have passed and both of my children are adults. My daughter is still laid back as she was when I brought her home from the hospital; my son is more on the go and full of energy as he was when I brought him home. So…. try to relax and remember this too shall pass. You are a creative genius and doing nothing wrong with the baby. (p.s. my son still remembers those nights when I sat in the rocker at 2:00 a.m. singing Twinkle, twinkle little star and trying to get him to go back to sleep.
It has been years since I had my babies, but I understand your frustration. My first child was a breeze; slept through the night without a problem. When I had my second child 7 years later it was a different story. He never slept through the night until he was two! I thought I was doing everything wrong. I was so sleep deprived that I felt like everything in my life was crashing. I had to learn to carve out time for myself whether it was to leave the baby with my husband, a sitter, or grandparent. The guilt was the worst; why is this child being so difficult.
Years have passed and both of my children are adults. My daughter is still laid back as she was when I brought her home from the hospital; my son is more on the go and full of energy as he was when I brought him home. So…. try to relax and remember this too shall pass. You are a creative genius and doing nothing wrong with the baby. (p.s. my son still remembers those nights when I sat in the rocker at 2:00 a.m. singing Twinkle, twinkle little star and trying to get him to go back to sleep.
It has been years since I had my babies, but I understand your frustration. My first child was a breeze; slept through the night without a problem. When I had my second child 7 years later it was a different story. He never slept through the night until he was two! I thought I was doing everything wrong. I was so sleep deprived that I felt like everything in my life was crashing. I had to learn to carve out time for myself whether it was to leave the baby with my husband, a sitter, or grandparent. The guilt was the worst; why is this child being so difficult.
Years have passed and both of my children are adults. My daughter is still laid back as she was when I brought her home from the hospital; my son is more on the go and full of energy as he was when I brought him home. So…. try to relax and remember this too shall pass. You are a creative genius and doing nothing wrong with the baby. (p.s. my son still remembers those nights when I sat in the rocker at 2:00 a.m. singing Twinkle, twinkle little star and trying to get him to go back to sleep.
It has been years since I had my babies, but I understand your frustration. My first child was a breeze; slept through the night without a problem. When I had my second child 7 years later it was a different story. He never slept through the night until he was two! I thought I was doing everything wrong. I was so sleep deprived that I felt like everything in my life was crashing. I had to learn to carve out time for myself whether it was to leave the baby with my husband, a sitter, or grandparent. The guilt was the worst; why is this child being so difficult.
Years have passed and both of my children are adults. My daughter is still laid back as she was when I brought her home from the hospital; my son is more on the go and full of energy as he was when I brought him home. So…. try to relax and remember this too shall pass. You are a creative genius and doing nothing wrong with the baby. (p.s. my son still remembers those nights when I sat in the rocker at 2:00 a.m. singing Twinkle, twinkle little star and trying to get him to go back to sleep.
It has been years since I had my babies, but I understand your frustration. My first child was a breeze; slept through the night without a problem. When I had my second child 7 years later it was a different story. He never slept through the night until he was two! I thought I was doing everything wrong. I was so sleep deprived that I felt like everything in my life was crashing. I had to learn to carve out time for myself whether it was to leave the baby with my husband, a sitter, or grandparent. The guilt was the worst; why is this child being so difficult.
Years have passed and both of my children are adults. My daughter is still laid back as she was when I brought her home from the hospital; my son is more on the go and full of energy as he was when I brought him home. So…. try to relax and remember this too shall pass. You are a creative genius and doing nothing wrong with the baby. (p.s. my son still remembers those nights when I sat in the rocker at 2:00 a.m. singing Twinkle, twinkle little star and trying to get him to go back to sleep.
When I started to read your article, I thought I would only read the first few days. I mean, 30 days is a long time to read someone else’s life. I didn’t stop reading until the last word, after the 30 days. You are as amazing a writer as you are an artist. My first child was so difficult (absolutely would not go to sleep)…and I didn’t have an easy birth and had so much pain after. My stitches got infected and…I don’t even want to bring that memory back. So. Here is one person who lived through exactly what you are going through. I thought I was a terrible person to sometimes really want to give that baby away! No one offered to take her, so I had to keep her and learn how to survive on no sleep, feeling so fat, having a completely uninvolved husband…this is making me start to feel sorry for myself all over again. You are recovering much faster than I did! I am so glad for you.
When I started to read your article, I thought I would only read the first few days. I mean, 30 days is a long time to read someone else’s life. I didn’t stop reading until the last word, after the 30 days. You are as amazing a writer as you are an artist. My first child was so difficult (absolutely would not go to sleep)…and I didn’t have an easy birth and had so much pain after. My stitches got infected and…I don’t even want to bring that memory back. So. Here is one person who lived through exactly what you are going through. I thought I was a terrible person to sometimes really want to give that baby away! No one offered to take her, so I had to keep her and learn how to survive on no sleep, feeling so fat, having a completely uninvolved husband…this is making me start to feel sorry for myself all over again. You are recovering much faster than I did! I am so glad for you.
When I started to read your article, I thought I would only read the first few days. I mean, 30 days is a long time to read someone else’s life. I didn’t stop reading until the last word, after the 30 days. You are as amazing a writer as you are an artist. My first child was so difficult (absolutely would not go to sleep)…and I didn’t have an easy birth and had so much pain after. My stitches got infected and…I don’t even want to bring that memory back. So. Here is one person who lived through exactly what you are going through. I thought I was a terrible person to sometimes really want to give that baby away! No one offered to take her, so I had to keep her and learn how to survive on no sleep, feeling so fat, having a completely uninvolved husband…this is making me start to feel sorry for myself all over again. You are recovering much faster than I did! I am so glad for you.
When I started to read your article, I thought I would only read the first few days. I mean, 30 days is a long time to read someone else’s life. I didn’t stop reading until the last word, after the 30 days. You are as amazing a writer as you are an artist. My first child was so difficult (absolutely would not go to sleep)…and I didn’t have an easy birth and had so much pain after. My stitches got infected and…I don’t even want to bring that memory back. So. Here is one person who lived through exactly what you are going through. I thought I was a terrible person to sometimes really want to give that baby away! No one offered to take her, so I had to keep her and learn how to survive on no sleep, feeling so fat, having a completely uninvolved husband…this is making me start to feel sorry for myself all over again. You are recovering much faster than I did! I am so glad for you.
When I started to read your article, I thought I would only read the first few days. I mean, 30 days is a long time to read someone else’s life. I didn’t stop reading until the last word, after the 30 days. You are as amazing a writer as you are an artist. My first child was so difficult (absolutely would not go to sleep)…and I didn’t have an easy birth and had so much pain after. My stitches got infected and…I don’t even want to bring that memory back. So. Here is one person who lived through exactly what you are going through. I thought I was a terrible person to sometimes really want to give that baby away! No one offered to take her, so I had to keep her and learn how to survive on no sleep, feeling so fat, having a completely uninvolved husband…this is making me start to feel sorry for myself all over again. You are recovering much faster than I did! I am so glad for you.
When I started to read your article, I thought I would only read the first few days. I mean, 30 days is a long time to read someone else’s life. I didn’t stop reading until the last word, after the 30 days. You are as amazing a writer as you are an artist. My first child was so difficult (absolutely would not go to sleep)…and I didn’t have an easy birth and had so much pain after. My stitches got infected and…I don’t even want to bring that memory back. So. Here is one person who lived through exactly what you are going through. I thought I was a terrible person to sometimes really want to give that baby away! No one offered to take her, so I had to keep her and learn how to survive on no sleep, feeling so fat, having a completely uninvolved husband…this is making me start to feel sorry for myself all over again. You are recovering much faster than I did! I am so glad for you.
When I started to read your article, I thought I would only read the first few days. I mean, 30 days is a long time to read someone else’s life. I didn’t stop reading until the last word, after the 30 days. You are as amazing a writer as you are an artist. My first child was so difficult (absolutely would not go to sleep)…and I didn’t have an easy birth and had so much pain after. My stitches got infected and…I don’t even want to bring that memory back. So. Here is one person who lived through exactly what you are going through. I thought I was a terrible person to sometimes really want to give that baby away! No one offered to take her, so I had to keep her and learn how to survive on no sleep, feeling so fat, having a completely uninvolved husband…this is making me start to feel sorry for myself all over again. You are recovering much faster than I did! I am so glad for you.
Can’t wait to read it. If it is any consolation, all the Lily newsletters have what I think is weird art.
Can’t wait to read it. If it is any consolation, all the Lily newsletters have what I think is weird art.
Can’t wait to read it. If it is any consolation, all the Lily newsletters have what I think is weird art.
Can’t wait to read it. If it is any consolation, all the Lily newsletters have what I think is weird art.
Can’t wait to read it. If it is any consolation, all the Lily newsletters have what I think is weird art.
Can’t wait to read it. If it is any consolation, all the Lily newsletters have what I think is weird art.
Can’t wait to read it. If it is any consolation, all the Lily newsletters have what I think is weird art.
Julie–I could never be that honest in writing! In fact, I have problems journaling, period. You have incredible courage and strength. Keep on keeping on. Keep on writing!
Julie–I could never be that honest in writing! In fact, I have problems journaling, period. You have incredible courage and strength. Keep on keeping on. Keep on writing!
Julie–I could never be that honest in writing! In fact, I have problems journaling, period. You have incredible courage and strength. Keep on keeping on. Keep on writing!
Julie–I could never be that honest in writing! In fact, I have problems journaling, period. You have incredible courage and strength. Keep on keeping on. Keep on writing!
Julie–I could never be that honest in writing! In fact, I have problems journaling, period. You have incredible courage and strength. Keep on keeping on. Keep on writing!
Julie–I could never be that honest in writing! In fact, I have problems journaling, period. You have incredible courage and strength. Keep on keeping on. Keep on writing!
Julie–I could never be that honest in writing! In fact, I have problems journaling, period. You have incredible courage and strength. Keep on keeping on. Keep on writing!
I have admired you for years for sharing the ART you do and the inspiration you give so graciously. However this journaling you have shared is so RAW and REAL. Today my heart is exploding with emotions as I have just finished reading your ‘First 30 days’.
Your strength, hope and faith are shining!!!!
THANKS….THANKS….THANKS
I have admired you for years for sharing the ART you do and the inspiration you give so graciously. However this journaling you have shared is so RAW and REAL. Today my heart is exploding with emotions as I have just finished reading your ‘First 30 days’.
Your strength, hope and faith are shining!!!!
THANKS….THANKS….THANKS
I have admired you for years for sharing the ART you do and the inspiration you give so graciously. However this journaling you have shared is so RAW and REAL. Today my heart is exploding with emotions as I have just finished reading your ‘First 30 days’.
Your strength, hope and faith are shining!!!!
THANKS….THANKS….THANKS
I have admired you for years for sharing the ART you do and the inspiration you give so graciously. However this journaling you have shared is so RAW and REAL. Today my heart is exploding with emotions as I have just finished reading your ‘First 30 days’.
Your strength, hope and faith are shining!!!!
THANKS….THANKS….THANKS
I have admired you for years for sharing the ART you do and the inspiration you give so graciously. However this journaling you have shared is so RAW and REAL. Today my heart is exploding with emotions as I have just finished reading your ‘First 30 days’.
Your strength, hope and faith are shining!!!!
THANKS….THANKS….THANKS
I have admired you for years for sharing the ART you do and the inspiration you give so graciously. However this journaling you have shared is so RAW and REAL. Today my heart is exploding with emotions as I have just finished reading your ‘First 30 days’.
Your strength, hope and faith are shining!!!!
THANKS….THANKS….THANKS
I have admired you for years for sharing the ART you do and the inspiration you give so graciously. However this journaling you have shared is so RAW and REAL. Today my heart is exploding with emotions as I have just finished reading your ‘First 30 days’.
Your strength, hope and faith are shining!!!!
THANKS….THANKS….THANKS
Oh, Julie…sending gigantic hugs! I do not have any children, but I thank you for your honesty. <3
Oh, Julie…sending gigantic hugs! I do not have any children, but I thank you for your honesty. <3
Oh, Julie…sending gigantic hugs! I do not have any children, but I thank you for your honesty. <3
Oh, Julie…sending gigantic hugs! I do not have any children, but I thank you for your honesty. <3
Oh, Julie…sending gigantic hugs! I do not have any children, but I thank you for your honesty. <3
Oh, Julie…sending gigantic hugs! I do not have any children, but I thank you for your honesty. <3
Oh, Julie…sending gigantic hugs! I do not have any children, but I thank you for your honesty. <3
This was a very very good article to read Julie, I couldn’t stop. When I think back 36 years, I was pretty fortunate. My son was born 2 weeks premature, he was 6lbs 4oz. I was overwhelmed with concern and worry but I was also in my glory. I look at this beautiful baby boy that I carried for 9 months, felt kick, felt him moving around, but he let me sleep. When he was born, the first few nights were brand new. Baby woke, baby fed, baby burped, baby sleeping, I slept. I was a single parent as well, so it was all on me. He was an amazing baby. Gained weight and I had enough milk to feed two. I took a lot of walks, he was a summer baby, so the weather cooperated and we took the dogs and baby in a buggy and off we went and it was like therapy. I cried a lot, but only because I was in this alone. Thank goodness my parents were around, only a short drive away. My Dad would come and take him for a walk and work out in my garden with baby sleeping in the stroller, awwww grandad. I just want to give you a big hug and look after your boy while you and Steve sleep. 🙂 I want to say those pictures are beautiful, you are beautiful. This part of the journey into motherhood will pass, you will find your new normal and make things work. I do hope your little man is sleeping a bit better now, you definitely have to get him on your schedule. Things may seem impossible but oh Julie, so worth it in the end. Much love to you and Steve and blessings to your new little one. Happy New Year.
This was a very very good article to read Julie, I couldn’t stop. When I think back 36 years, I was pretty fortunate. My son was born 2 weeks premature, he was 6lbs 4oz. I was overwhelmed with concern and worry but I was also in my glory. I look at this beautiful baby boy that I carried for 9 months, felt kick, felt him moving around, but he let me sleep. When he was born, the first few nights were brand new. Baby woke, baby fed, baby burped, baby sleeping, I slept. I was a single parent as well, so it was all on me. He was an amazing baby. Gained weight and I had enough milk to feed two. I took a lot of walks, he was a summer baby, so the weather cooperated and we took the dogs and baby in a buggy and off we went and it was like therapy. I cried a lot, but only because I was in this alone. Thank goodness my parents were around, only a short drive away. My Dad would come and take him for a walk and work out in my garden with baby sleeping in the stroller, awwww grandad. I just want to give you a big hug and look after your boy while you and Steve sleep. 🙂 I want to say those pictures are beautiful, you are beautiful. This part of the journey into motherhood will pass, you will find your new normal and make things work. I do hope your little man is sleeping a bit better now, you definitely have to get him on your schedule. Things may seem impossible but oh Julie, so worth it in the end. Much love to you and Steve and blessings to your new little one. Happy New Year.
This was a very very good article to read Julie, I couldn’t stop. When I think back 36 years, I was pretty fortunate. My son was born 2 weeks premature, he was 6lbs 4oz. I was overwhelmed with concern and worry but I was also in my glory. I look at this beautiful baby boy that I carried for 9 months, felt kick, felt him moving around, but he let me sleep. When he was born, the first few nights were brand new. Baby woke, baby fed, baby burped, baby sleeping, I slept. I was a single parent as well, so it was all on me. He was an amazing baby. Gained weight and I had enough milk to feed two. I took a lot of walks, he was a summer baby, so the weather cooperated and we took the dogs and baby in a buggy and off we went and it was like therapy. I cried a lot, but only because I was in this alone. Thank goodness my parents were around, only a short drive away. My Dad would come and take him for a walk and work out in my garden with baby sleeping in the stroller, awwww grandad. I just want to give you a big hug and look after your boy while you and Steve sleep. 🙂 I want to say those pictures are beautiful, you are beautiful. This part of the journey into motherhood will pass, you will find your new normal and make things work. I do hope your little man is sleeping a bit better now, you definitely have to get him on your schedule. Things may seem impossible but oh Julie, so worth it in the end. Much love to you and Steve and blessings to your new little one. Happy New Year.
This was a very very good article to read Julie, I couldn’t stop. When I think back 36 years, I was pretty fortunate. My son was born 2 weeks premature, he was 6lbs 4oz. I was overwhelmed with concern and worry but I was also in my glory. I look at this beautiful baby boy that I carried for 9 months, felt kick, felt him moving around, but he let me sleep. When he was born, the first few nights were brand new. Baby woke, baby fed, baby burped, baby sleeping, I slept. I was a single parent as well, so it was all on me. He was an amazing baby. Gained weight and I had enough milk to feed two. I took a lot of walks, he was a summer baby, so the weather cooperated and we took the dogs and baby in a buggy and off we went and it was like therapy. I cried a lot, but only because I was in this alone. Thank goodness my parents were around, only a short drive away. My Dad would come and take him for a walk and work out in my garden with baby sleeping in the stroller, awwww grandad. I just want to give you a big hug and look after your boy while you and Steve sleep. 🙂 I want to say those pictures are beautiful, you are beautiful. This part of the journey into motherhood will pass, you will find your new normal and make things work. I do hope your little man is sleeping a bit better now, you definitely have to get him on your schedule. Things may seem impossible but oh Julie, so worth it in the end. Much love to you and Steve and blessings to your new little one. Happy New Year.
This was a very very good article to read Julie, I couldn’t stop. When I think back 36 years, I was pretty fortunate. My son was born 2 weeks premature, he was 6lbs 4oz. I was overwhelmed with concern and worry but I was also in my glory. I look at this beautiful baby boy that I carried for 9 months, felt kick, felt him moving around, but he let me sleep. When he was born, the first few nights were brand new. Baby woke, baby fed, baby burped, baby sleeping, I slept. I was a single parent as well, so it was all on me. He was an amazing baby. Gained weight and I had enough milk to feed two. I took a lot of walks, he was a summer baby, so the weather cooperated and we took the dogs and baby in a buggy and off we went and it was like therapy. I cried a lot, but only because I was in this alone. Thank goodness my parents were around, only a short drive away. My Dad would come and take him for a walk and work out in my garden with baby sleeping in the stroller, awwww grandad. I just want to give you a big hug and look after your boy while you and Steve sleep. 🙂 I want to say those pictures are beautiful, you are beautiful. This part of the journey into motherhood will pass, you will find your new normal and make things work. I do hope your little man is sleeping a bit better now, you definitely have to get him on your schedule. Things may seem impossible but oh Julie, so worth it in the end. Much love to you and Steve and blessings to your new little one. Happy New Year.
This was a very very good article to read Julie, I couldn’t stop. When I think back 36 years, I was pretty fortunate. My son was born 2 weeks premature, he was 6lbs 4oz. I was overwhelmed with concern and worry but I was also in my glory. I look at this beautiful baby boy that I carried for 9 months, felt kick, felt him moving around, but he let me sleep. When he was born, the first few nights were brand new. Baby woke, baby fed, baby burped, baby sleeping, I slept. I was a single parent as well, so it was all on me. He was an amazing baby. Gained weight and I had enough milk to feed two. I took a lot of walks, he was a summer baby, so the weather cooperated and we took the dogs and baby in a buggy and off we went and it was like therapy. I cried a lot, but only because I was in this alone. Thank goodness my parents were around, only a short drive away. My Dad would come and take him for a walk and work out in my garden with baby sleeping in the stroller, awwww grandad. I just want to give you a big hug and look after your boy while you and Steve sleep. 🙂 I want to say those pictures are beautiful, you are beautiful. This part of the journey into motherhood will pass, you will find your new normal and make things work. I do hope your little man is sleeping a bit better now, you definitely have to get him on your schedule. Things may seem impossible but oh Julie, so worth it in the end. Much love to you and Steve and blessings to your new little one. Happy New Year.
This was a very very good article to read Julie, I couldn’t stop. When I think back 36 years, I was pretty fortunate. My son was born 2 weeks premature, he was 6lbs 4oz. I was overwhelmed with concern and worry but I was also in my glory. I look at this beautiful baby boy that I carried for 9 months, felt kick, felt him moving around, but he let me sleep. When he was born, the first few nights were brand new. Baby woke, baby fed, baby burped, baby sleeping, I slept. I was a single parent as well, so it was all on me. He was an amazing baby. Gained weight and I had enough milk to feed two. I took a lot of walks, he was a summer baby, so the weather cooperated and we took the dogs and baby in a buggy and off we went and it was like therapy. I cried a lot, but only because I was in this alone. Thank goodness my parents were around, only a short drive away. My Dad would come and take him for a walk and work out in my garden with baby sleeping in the stroller, awwww grandad. I just want to give you a big hug and look after your boy while you and Steve sleep. 🙂 I want to say those pictures are beautiful, you are beautiful. This part of the journey into motherhood will pass, you will find your new normal and make things work. I do hope your little man is sleeping a bit better now, you definitely have to get him on your schedule. Things may seem impossible but oh Julie, so worth it in the end. Much love to you and Steve and blessings to your new little one. Happy New Year.
much love to you, Julie!
thank you for sharing.
thank you for everything …
you make me want to art …
you give me confidence …
you are amazing!
much love to you, Julie!
thank you for sharing.
thank you for everything …
you make me want to art …
you give me confidence …
you are amazing!
much love to you, Julie!
thank you for sharing.
thank you for everything …
you make me want to art …
you give me confidence …
you are amazing!
much love to you, Julie!
thank you for sharing.
thank you for everything …
you make me want to art …
you give me confidence …
you are amazing!
much love to you, Julie!
thank you for sharing.
thank you for everything …
you make me want to art …
you give me confidence …
you are amazing!
much love to you, Julie!
thank you for sharing.
thank you for everything …
you make me want to art …
you give me confidence …
you are amazing!
much love to you, Julie!
thank you for sharing.
thank you for everything …
you make me want to art …
you give me confidence …
you are amazing!
Dearest Julie, thank you so much for your honesty! So many women struggle with PPD. When my daughter had her first child, she couldn’t stop crying — she was so fearful that she wouldn’t know how to take care of him. I had to remind her that she was a veterinarian and had graduated top in her class for the care of small mammals — she really could do this! And she did: he’s now a senior in high school 🙂
You are not alone, and you are helping other women know THEY are not alone.
Dearest Julie, thank you so much for your honesty! So many women struggle with PPD. When my daughter had her first child, she couldn’t stop crying — she was so fearful that she wouldn’t know how to take care of him. I had to remind her that she was a veterinarian and had graduated top in her class for the care of small mammals — she really could do this! And she did: he’s now a senior in high school 🙂
You are not alone, and you are helping other women know THEY are not alone.
Dearest Julie, thank you so much for your honesty! So many women struggle with PPD. When my daughter had her first child, she couldn’t stop crying — she was so fearful that she wouldn’t know how to take care of him. I had to remind her that she was a veterinarian and had graduated top in her class for the care of small mammals — she really could do this! And she did: he’s now a senior in high school 🙂
You are not alone, and you are helping other women know THEY are not alone.
Dearest Julie, thank you so much for your honesty! So many women struggle with PPD. When my daughter had her first child, she couldn’t stop crying — she was so fearful that she wouldn’t know how to take care of him. I had to remind her that she was a veterinarian and had graduated top in her class for the care of small mammals — she really could do this! And she did: he’s now a senior in high school 🙂
You are not alone, and you are helping other women know THEY are not alone.
Dearest Julie, thank you so much for your honesty! So many women struggle with PPD. When my daughter had her first child, she couldn’t stop crying — she was so fearful that she wouldn’t know how to take care of him. I had to remind her that she was a veterinarian and had graduated top in her class for the care of small mammals — she really could do this! And she did: he’s now a senior in high school 🙂
You are not alone, and you are helping other women know THEY are not alone.
Dearest Julie, thank you so much for your honesty! So many women struggle with PPD. When my daughter had her first child, she couldn’t stop crying — she was so fearful that she wouldn’t know how to take care of him. I had to remind her that she was a veterinarian and had graduated top in her class for the care of small mammals — she really could do this! And she did: he’s now a senior in high school 🙂
You are not alone, and you are helping other women know THEY are not alone.
Dearest Julie, thank you so much for your honesty! So many women struggle with PPD. When my daughter had her first child, she couldn’t stop crying — she was so fearful that she wouldn’t know how to take care of him. I had to remind her that she was a veterinarian and had graduated top in her class for the care of small mammals — she really could do this! And she did: he’s now a senior in high school 🙂
You are not alone, and you are helping other women know THEY are not alone.
I too just finished your wonderful article!!! I am a 73 yr old grandma/mom of two….guess it’s the age but I don’t remember going through tough times. That is the wonderful thing about having children…this too will pass and you will only focus on that amazing baby and the fun times. Your article was so real and I know you will help so many other new moms out there!!! Kudo’s for your honestly…no shame in ANY of your feelings and women need to know it’s OK to ask for help or seek help from your doctor. Bless you and your family…you are amazing!
I too just finished your wonderful article!!! I am a 73 yr old grandma/mom of two….guess it’s the age but I don’t remember going through tough times. That is the wonderful thing about having children…this too will pass and you will only focus on that amazing baby and the fun times. Your article was so real and I know you will help so many other new moms out there!!! Kudo’s for your honestly…no shame in ANY of your feelings and women need to know it’s OK to ask for help or seek help from your doctor. Bless you and your family…you are amazing!
I too just finished your wonderful article!!! I am a 73 yr old grandma/mom of two….guess it’s the age but I don’t remember going through tough times. That is the wonderful thing about having children…this too will pass and you will only focus on that amazing baby and the fun times. Your article was so real and I know you will help so many other new moms out there!!! Kudo’s for your honestly…no shame in ANY of your feelings and women need to know it’s OK to ask for help or seek help from your doctor. Bless you and your family…you are amazing!
I too just finished your wonderful article!!! I am a 73 yr old grandma/mom of two….guess it’s the age but I don’t remember going through tough times. That is the wonderful thing about having children…this too will pass and you will only focus on that amazing baby and the fun times. Your article was so real and I know you will help so many other new moms out there!!! Kudo’s for your honestly…no shame in ANY of your feelings and women need to know it’s OK to ask for help or seek help from your doctor. Bless you and your family…you are amazing!
I too just finished your wonderful article!!! I am a 73 yr old grandma/mom of two….guess it’s the age but I don’t remember going through tough times. That is the wonderful thing about having children…this too will pass and you will only focus on that amazing baby and the fun times. Your article was so real and I know you will help so many other new moms out there!!! Kudo’s for your honestly…no shame in ANY of your feelings and women need to know it’s OK to ask for help or seek help from your doctor. Bless you and your family…you are amazing!
I too just finished your wonderful article!!! I am a 73 yr old grandma/mom of two….guess it’s the age but I don’t remember going through tough times. That is the wonderful thing about having children…this too will pass and you will only focus on that amazing baby and the fun times. Your article was so real and I know you will help so many other new moms out there!!! Kudo’s for your honestly…no shame in ANY of your feelings and women need to know it’s OK to ask for help or seek help from your doctor. Bless you and your family…you are amazing!
I too just finished your wonderful article!!! I am a 73 yr old grandma/mom of two….guess it’s the age but I don’t remember going through tough times. That is the wonderful thing about having children…this too will pass and you will only focus on that amazing baby and the fun times. Your article was so real and I know you will help so many other new moms out there!!! Kudo’s for your honestly…no shame in ANY of your feelings and women need to know it’s OK to ask for help or seek help from your doctor. Bless you and your family…you are amazing!
this is some of the bravest writing I’ve ever seen- bravo to you for owning this and naming it so quickly. Your honesty will help others identify and normalize this experience, and all my best wishes for your beautiful family. Continue to allow the village you have created to support you and babysit so that you can make your art!!
ck
this is some of the bravest writing I’ve ever seen- bravo to you for owning this and naming it so quickly. Your honesty will help others identify and normalize this experience, and all my best wishes for your beautiful family. Continue to allow the village you have created to support you and babysit so that you can make your art!!
ck
this is some of the bravest writing I’ve ever seen- bravo to you for owning this and naming it so quickly. Your honesty will help others identify and normalize this experience, and all my best wishes for your beautiful family. Continue to allow the village you have created to support you and babysit so that you can make your art!!
ck
this is some of the bravest writing I’ve ever seen- bravo to you for owning this and naming it so quickly. Your honesty will help others identify and normalize this experience, and all my best wishes for your beautiful family. Continue to allow the village you have created to support you and babysit so that you can make your art!!
ck
this is some of the bravest writing I’ve ever seen- bravo to you for owning this and naming it so quickly. Your honesty will help others identify and normalize this experience, and all my best wishes for your beautiful family. Continue to allow the village you have created to support you and babysit so that you can make your art!!
ck
this is some of the bravest writing I’ve ever seen- bravo to you for owning this and naming it so quickly. Your honesty will help others identify and normalize this experience, and all my best wishes for your beautiful family. Continue to allow the village you have created to support you and babysit so that you can make your art!!
ck
this is some of the bravest writing I’ve ever seen- bravo to you for owning this and naming it so quickly. Your honesty will help others identify and normalize this experience, and all my best wishes for your beautiful family. Continue to allow the village you have created to support you and babysit so that you can make your art!!
ck
Julie, As all of the women who have posted, I too understand what you have, are and will be going thru. You are such an awesome and dynamic woman. I remember feeling many of the same feelings when my first born daughter arrived 52 years ago but never spoke of them because that was not appropriate back then. I am so glad that you shared from your heart and your gut your first 30 days of motherhood. Your honesty is so valuable and I pray others will benefit from your wisdom when they read your story. I admire you and Steve so much. You are the best together and I am certain that all three of you will survive and flourish in this new life of parenthood! My thoughts and prayers are with you always. You are the one who inspired me to begin the creative journey I am on now. And I am so thankful I attended your SNC class in San Diego in 2018. You are a strong, creative, caring woman and will be magnificent in this new and challenging role as a mother. I have no doubt you and Steve will raise your son to be loving and creative. I am so excited for your future! Much love, Kitty
Julie, As all of the women who have posted, I too understand what you have, are and will be going thru. You are such an awesome and dynamic woman. I remember feeling many of the same feelings when my first born daughter arrived 52 years ago but never spoke of them because that was not appropriate back then. I am so glad that you shared from your heart and your gut your first 30 days of motherhood. Your honesty is so valuable and I pray others will benefit from your wisdom when they read your story. I admire you and Steve so much. You are the best together and I am certain that all three of you will survive and flourish in this new life of parenthood! My thoughts and prayers are with you always. You are the one who inspired me to begin the creative journey I am on now. And I am so thankful I attended your SNC class in San Diego in 2018. You are a strong, creative, caring woman and will be magnificent in this new and challenging role as a mother. I have no doubt you and Steve will raise your son to be loving and creative. I am so excited for your future! Much love, Kitty
Julie, As all of the women who have posted, I too understand what you have, are and will be going thru. You are such an awesome and dynamic woman. I remember feeling many of the same feelings when my first born daughter arrived 52 years ago but never spoke of them because that was not appropriate back then. I am so glad that you shared from your heart and your gut your first 30 days of motherhood. Your honesty is so valuable and I pray others will benefit from your wisdom when they read your story. I admire you and Steve so much. You are the best together and I am certain that all three of you will survive and flourish in this new life of parenthood! My thoughts and prayers are with you always. You are the one who inspired me to begin the creative journey I am on now. And I am so thankful I attended your SNC class in San Diego in 2018. You are a strong, creative, caring woman and will be magnificent in this new and challenging role as a mother. I have no doubt you and Steve will raise your son to be loving and creative. I am so excited for your future! Much love, Kitty
Julie, As all of the women who have posted, I too understand what you have, are and will be going thru. You are such an awesome and dynamic woman. I remember feeling many of the same feelings when my first born daughter arrived 52 years ago but never spoke of them because that was not appropriate back then. I am so glad that you shared from your heart and your gut your first 30 days of motherhood. Your honesty is so valuable and I pray others will benefit from your wisdom when they read your story. I admire you and Steve so much. You are the best together and I am certain that all three of you will survive and flourish in this new life of parenthood! My thoughts and prayers are with you always. You are the one who inspired me to begin the creative journey I am on now. And I am so thankful I attended your SNC class in San Diego in 2018. You are a strong, creative, caring woman and will be magnificent in this new and challenging role as a mother. I have no doubt you and Steve will raise your son to be loving and creative. I am so excited for your future! Much love, Kitty
Julie, As all of the women who have posted, I too understand what you have, are and will be going thru. You are such an awesome and dynamic woman. I remember feeling many of the same feelings when my first born daughter arrived 52 years ago but never spoke of them because that was not appropriate back then. I am so glad that you shared from your heart and your gut your first 30 days of motherhood. Your honesty is so valuable and I pray others will benefit from your wisdom when they read your story. I admire you and Steve so much. You are the best together and I am certain that all three of you will survive and flourish in this new life of parenthood! My thoughts and prayers are with you always. You are the one who inspired me to begin the creative journey I am on now. And I am so thankful I attended your SNC class in San Diego in 2018. You are a strong, creative, caring woman and will be magnificent in this new and challenging role as a mother. I have no doubt you and Steve will raise your son to be loving and creative. I am so excited for your future! Much love, Kitty
Julie, As all of the women who have posted, I too understand what you have, are and will be going thru. You are such an awesome and dynamic woman. I remember feeling many of the same feelings when my first born daughter arrived 52 years ago but never spoke of them because that was not appropriate back then. I am so glad that you shared from your heart and your gut your first 30 days of motherhood. Your honesty is so valuable and I pray others will benefit from your wisdom when they read your story. I admire you and Steve so much. You are the best together and I am certain that all three of you will survive and flourish in this new life of parenthood! My thoughts and prayers are with you always. You are the one who inspired me to begin the creative journey I am on now. And I am so thankful I attended your SNC class in San Diego in 2018. You are a strong, creative, caring woman and will be magnificent in this new and challenging role as a mother. I have no doubt you and Steve will raise your son to be loving and creative. I am so excited for your future! Much love, Kitty
Julie, As all of the women who have posted, I too understand what you have, are and will be going thru. You are such an awesome and dynamic woman. I remember feeling many of the same feelings when my first born daughter arrived 52 years ago but never spoke of them because that was not appropriate back then. I am so glad that you shared from your heart and your gut your first 30 days of motherhood. Your honesty is so valuable and I pray others will benefit from your wisdom when they read your story. I admire you and Steve so much. You are the best together and I am certain that all three of you will survive and flourish in this new life of parenthood! My thoughts and prayers are with you always. You are the one who inspired me to begin the creative journey I am on now. And I am so thankful I attended your SNC class in San Diego in 2018. You are a strong, creative, caring woman and will be magnificent in this new and challenging role as a mother. I have no doubt you and Steve will raise your son to be loving and creative. I am so excited for your future! Much love, Kitty
Oh yes yes yes, I could’ve written this 19 years ago this month (today would’ve been day 20). I was a mess in every way you described: sleep-deprived, physically exhausted, crying, depressed, isolated, hating my body, resenting my (very patient and helpful) husband. I had expected to be gloriously bonded with my child but no – this small person was a stranger who yelled at me a lot, and she wasn’t even colicky, just loud and demanding. Truth to tell, I had very few of those transcendant mommy moments than my friends cooed about; as much as I loved my kiddo, motherhood felt like a job that sucked 50% of the time. It got better as she got older, but I didn’t really come to enjoy it until she was a teenager. I feel sad about that, but we’re wired how we’re wired. The flipside is that I’ll take allllllll the teenagers. Someone’s gotta love ’em, right?!
One other thing, and I’m sure someone’s told you this by now, but just in case: baby weight takes more than a month to go away. It took nearly 10 months to put that weight on; it can take just as long for it to come off. And if it really hasn’t budged much after 6 months, have your thyroid checked. The signs of hypothyroid are easy to miss amidst the fog and low energy of new motherhood.
Love to you.
Oh yes yes yes, I could’ve written this 19 years ago this month (today would’ve been day 20). I was a mess in every way you described: sleep-deprived, physically exhausted, crying, depressed, isolated, hating my body, resenting my (very patient and helpful) husband. I had expected to be gloriously bonded with my child but no – this small person was a stranger who yelled at me a lot, and she wasn’t even colicky, just loud and demanding. Truth to tell, I had very few of those transcendant mommy moments than my friends cooed about; as much as I loved my kiddo, motherhood felt like a job that sucked 50% of the time. It got better as she got older, but I didn’t really come to enjoy it until she was a teenager. I feel sad about that, but we’re wired how we’re wired. The flipside is that I’ll take allllllll the teenagers. Someone’s gotta love ’em, right?!
One other thing, and I’m sure someone’s told you this by now, but just in case: baby weight takes more than a month to go away. It took nearly 10 months to put that weight on; it can take just as long for it to come off. And if it really hasn’t budged much after 6 months, have your thyroid checked. The signs of hypothyroid are easy to miss amidst the fog and low energy of new motherhood.
Love to you.
Oh yes yes yes, I could’ve written this 19 years ago this month (today would’ve been day 20). I was a mess in every way you described: sleep-deprived, physically exhausted, crying, depressed, isolated, hating my body, resenting my (very patient and helpful) husband. I had expected to be gloriously bonded with my child but no – this small person was a stranger who yelled at me a lot, and she wasn’t even colicky, just loud and demanding. Truth to tell, I had very few of those transcendant mommy moments than my friends cooed about; as much as I loved my kiddo, motherhood felt like a job that sucked 50% of the time. It got better as she got older, but I didn’t really come to enjoy it until she was a teenager. I feel sad about that, but we’re wired how we’re wired. The flipside is that I’ll take allllllll the teenagers. Someone’s gotta love ’em, right?!
One other thing, and I’m sure someone’s told you this by now, but just in case: baby weight takes more than a month to go away. It took nearly 10 months to put that weight on; it can take just as long for it to come off. And if it really hasn’t budged much after 6 months, have your thyroid checked. The signs of hypothyroid are easy to miss amidst the fog and low energy of new motherhood.
Love to you.
Oh yes yes yes, I could’ve written this 19 years ago this month (today would’ve been day 20). I was a mess in every way you described: sleep-deprived, physically exhausted, crying, depressed, isolated, hating my body, resenting my (very patient and helpful) husband. I had expected to be gloriously bonded with my child but no – this small person was a stranger who yelled at me a lot, and she wasn’t even colicky, just loud and demanding. Truth to tell, I had very few of those transcendant mommy moments than my friends cooed about; as much as I loved my kiddo, motherhood felt like a job that sucked 50% of the time. It got better as she got older, but I didn’t really come to enjoy it until she was a teenager. I feel sad about that, but we’re wired how we’re wired. The flipside is that I’ll take allllllll the teenagers. Someone’s gotta love ’em, right?!
One other thing, and I’m sure someone’s told you this by now, but just in case: baby weight takes more than a month to go away. It took nearly 10 months to put that weight on; it can take just as long for it to come off. And if it really hasn’t budged much after 6 months, have your thyroid checked. The signs of hypothyroid are easy to miss amidst the fog and low energy of new motherhood.
Love to you.
Oh yes yes yes, I could’ve written this 19 years ago this month (today would’ve been day 20). I was a mess in every way you described: sleep-deprived, physically exhausted, crying, depressed, isolated, hating my body, resenting my (very patient and helpful) husband. I had expected to be gloriously bonded with my child but no – this small person was a stranger who yelled at me a lot, and she wasn’t even colicky, just loud and demanding. Truth to tell, I had very few of those transcendant mommy moments than my friends cooed about; as much as I loved my kiddo, motherhood felt like a job that sucked 50% of the time. It got better as she got older, but I didn’t really come to enjoy it until she was a teenager. I feel sad about that, but we’re wired how we’re wired. The flipside is that I’ll take allllllll the teenagers. Someone’s gotta love ’em, right?!
One other thing, and I’m sure someone’s told you this by now, but just in case: baby weight takes more than a month to go away. It took nearly 10 months to put that weight on; it can take just as long for it to come off. And if it really hasn’t budged much after 6 months, have your thyroid checked. The signs of hypothyroid are easy to miss amidst the fog and low energy of new motherhood.
Love to you.
Oh yes yes yes, I could’ve written this 19 years ago this month (today would’ve been day 20). I was a mess in every way you described: sleep-deprived, physically exhausted, crying, depressed, isolated, hating my body, resenting my (very patient and helpful) husband. I had expected to be gloriously bonded with my child but no – this small person was a stranger who yelled at me a lot, and she wasn’t even colicky, just loud and demanding. Truth to tell, I had very few of those transcendant mommy moments than my friends cooed about; as much as I loved my kiddo, motherhood felt like a job that sucked 50% of the time. It got better as she got older, but I didn’t really come to enjoy it until she was a teenager. I feel sad about that, but we’re wired how we’re wired. The flipside is that I’ll take allllllll the teenagers. Someone’s gotta love ’em, right?!
One other thing, and I’m sure someone’s told you this by now, but just in case: baby weight takes more than a month to go away. It took nearly 10 months to put that weight on; it can take just as long for it to come off. And if it really hasn’t budged much after 6 months, have your thyroid checked. The signs of hypothyroid are easy to miss amidst the fog and low energy of new motherhood.
Love to you.
Oh yes yes yes, I could’ve written this 19 years ago this month (today would’ve been day 20). I was a mess in every way you described: sleep-deprived, physically exhausted, crying, depressed, isolated, hating my body, resenting my (very patient and helpful) husband. I had expected to be gloriously bonded with my child but no – this small person was a stranger who yelled at me a lot, and she wasn’t even colicky, just loud and demanding. Truth to tell, I had very few of those transcendant mommy moments than my friends cooed about; as much as I loved my kiddo, motherhood felt like a job that sucked 50% of the time. It got better as she got older, but I didn’t really come to enjoy it until she was a teenager. I feel sad about that, but we’re wired how we’re wired. The flipside is that I’ll take allllllll the teenagers. Someone’s gotta love ’em, right?!
One other thing, and I’m sure someone’s told you this by now, but just in case: baby weight takes more than a month to go away. It took nearly 10 months to put that weight on; it can take just as long for it to come off. And if it really hasn’t budged much after 6 months, have your thyroid checked. The signs of hypothyroid are easy to miss amidst the fog and low energy of new motherhood.
Love to you.
Yes, yes, yes!! You plainly stated what so many of us go through after birthing a tiny human being. PPD is very real! And yes, it needs to be shared and talked about so much more.
As I’m sure you’ve been told, it does get better…a little bit every day. Hang in there!
Yes, yes, yes!! You plainly stated what so many of us go through after birthing a tiny human being. PPD is very real! And yes, it needs to be shared and talked about so much more.
As I’m sure you’ve been told, it does get better…a little bit every day. Hang in there!
Yes, yes, yes!! You plainly stated what so many of us go through after birthing a tiny human being. PPD is very real! And yes, it needs to be shared and talked about so much more.
As I’m sure you’ve been told, it does get better…a little bit every day. Hang in there!
Yes, yes, yes!! You plainly stated what so many of us go through after birthing a tiny human being. PPD is very real! And yes, it needs to be shared and talked about so much more.
As I’m sure you’ve been told, it does get better…a little bit every day. Hang in there!
Yes, yes, yes!! You plainly stated what so many of us go through after birthing a tiny human being. PPD is very real! And yes, it needs to be shared and talked about so much more.
As I’m sure you’ve been told, it does get better…a little bit every day. Hang in there!
Yes, yes, yes!! You plainly stated what so many of us go through after birthing a tiny human being. PPD is very real! And yes, it needs to be shared and talked about so much more.
As I’m sure you’ve been told, it does get better…a little bit every day. Hang in there!
Yes, yes, yes!! You plainly stated what so many of us go through after birthing a tiny human being. PPD is very real! And yes, it needs to be shared and talked about so much more.
As I’m sure you’ve been told, it does get better…a little bit every day. Hang in there!
Julie, thanks so much for sharing. Indeed, postpartum isn’t something people talk about too much, but it should be. It has been nearly 45 years since my son was born and your journal says it all! It is not an easy time for new mothers. Our babies are so precious and we all want to do best by them, but OH MY! Thanks again, hugs, and above all patience, with the baby and with yourself.
Julie, thanks so much for sharing. Indeed, postpartum isn’t something people talk about too much, but it should be. It has been nearly 45 years since my son was born and your journal says it all! It is not an easy time for new mothers. Our babies are so precious and we all want to do best by them, but OH MY! Thanks again, hugs, and above all patience, with the baby and with yourself.
Julie, thanks so much for sharing. Indeed, postpartum isn’t something people talk about too much, but it should be. It has been nearly 45 years since my son was born and your journal says it all! It is not an easy time for new mothers. Our babies are so precious and we all want to do best by them, but OH MY! Thanks again, hugs, and above all patience, with the baby and with yourself.
Julie, thanks so much for sharing. Indeed, postpartum isn’t something people talk about too much, but it should be. It has been nearly 45 years since my son was born and your journal says it all! It is not an easy time for new mothers. Our babies are so precious and we all want to do best by them, but OH MY! Thanks again, hugs, and above all patience, with the baby and with yourself.
Julie, thanks so much for sharing. Indeed, postpartum isn’t something people talk about too much, but it should be. It has been nearly 45 years since my son was born and your journal says it all! It is not an easy time for new mothers. Our babies are so precious and we all want to do best by them, but OH MY! Thanks again, hugs, and above all patience, with the baby and with yourself.
Julie, thanks so much for sharing. Indeed, postpartum isn’t something people talk about too much, but it should be. It has been nearly 45 years since my son was born and your journal says it all! It is not an easy time for new mothers. Our babies are so precious and we all want to do best by them, but OH MY! Thanks again, hugs, and above all patience, with the baby and with yourself.
Julie, thanks so much for sharing. Indeed, postpartum isn’t something people talk about too much, but it should be. It has been nearly 45 years since my son was born and your journal says it all! It is not an easy time for new mothers. Our babies are so precious and we all want to do best by them, but OH MY! Thanks again, hugs, and above all patience, with the baby and with yourself.
Wow! I am in awe of your raw honesty. Wish I knew you when I was going through my first baby days! He had colic and just cried all the time. The new baby smell was vomited breast milk!!!! And I threw up every time I had to change a dirty diaper. My husband left all day every day – also he was a student!!! His sleep was “more important” then mine!!! So he actually slept through the night every night. I did sleep with the baby in bed with me and he survived!!! I would wake up, bring him into bed, let him attach to the breast and immediately fall asleep. I never knew what sleep deprivation could do to you!!!! Unbearable, and yet we do bear it. My son turns 55 next month and is bright and a wonderful human being!!!! I had a daughter nine years later and it was a totally different experience. Dare I say it was easy? Well, not quite, but so much earies than the first time!!!! Love to you and yours!!!!
Wow! I am in awe of your raw honesty. Wish I knew you when I was going through my first baby days! He had colic and just cried all the time. The new baby smell was vomited breast milk!!!! And I threw up every time I had to change a dirty diaper. My husband left all day every day – also he was a student!!! His sleep was “more important” then mine!!! So he actually slept through the night every night. I did sleep with the baby in bed with me and he survived!!! I would wake up, bring him into bed, let him attach to the breast and immediately fall asleep. I never knew what sleep deprivation could do to you!!!! Unbearable, and yet we do bear it. My son turns 55 next month and is bright and a wonderful human being!!!! I had a daughter nine years later and it was a totally different experience. Dare I say it was easy? Well, not quite, but so much earies than the first time!!!! Love to you and yours!!!!
Wow! I am in awe of your raw honesty. Wish I knew you when I was going through my first baby days! He had colic and just cried all the time. The new baby smell was vomited breast milk!!!! And I threw up every time I had to change a dirty diaper. My husband left all day every day – also he was a student!!! His sleep was “more important” then mine!!! So he actually slept through the night every night. I did sleep with the baby in bed with me and he survived!!! I would wake up, bring him into bed, let him attach to the breast and immediately fall asleep. I never knew what sleep deprivation could do to you!!!! Unbearable, and yet we do bear it. My son turns 55 next month and is bright and a wonderful human being!!!! I had a daughter nine years later and it was a totally different experience. Dare I say it was easy? Well, not quite, but so much earies than the first time!!!! Love to you and yours!!!!
Wow! I am in awe of your raw honesty. Wish I knew you when I was going through my first baby days! He had colic and just cried all the time. The new baby smell was vomited breast milk!!!! And I threw up every time I had to change a dirty diaper. My husband left all day every day – also he was a student!!! His sleep was “more important” then mine!!! So he actually slept through the night every night. I did sleep with the baby in bed with me and he survived!!! I would wake up, bring him into bed, let him attach to the breast and immediately fall asleep. I never knew what sleep deprivation could do to you!!!! Unbearable, and yet we do bear it. My son turns 55 next month and is bright and a wonderful human being!!!! I had a daughter nine years later and it was a totally different experience. Dare I say it was easy? Well, not quite, but so much earies than the first time!!!! Love to you and yours!!!!
Wow! I am in awe of your raw honesty. Wish I knew you when I was going through my first baby days! He had colic and just cried all the time. The new baby smell was vomited breast milk!!!! And I threw up every time I had to change a dirty diaper. My husband left all day every day – also he was a student!!! His sleep was “more important” then mine!!! So he actually slept through the night every night. I did sleep with the baby in bed with me and he survived!!! I would wake up, bring him into bed, let him attach to the breast and immediately fall asleep. I never knew what sleep deprivation could do to you!!!! Unbearable, and yet we do bear it. My son turns 55 next month and is bright and a wonderful human being!!!! I had a daughter nine years later and it was a totally different experience. Dare I say it was easy? Well, not quite, but so much earies than the first time!!!! Love to you and yours!!!!
Wow! I am in awe of your raw honesty. Wish I knew you when I was going through my first baby days! He had colic and just cried all the time. The new baby smell was vomited breast milk!!!! And I threw up every time I had to change a dirty diaper. My husband left all day every day – also he was a student!!! His sleep was “more important” then mine!!! So he actually slept through the night every night. I did sleep with the baby in bed with me and he survived!!! I would wake up, bring him into bed, let him attach to the breast and immediately fall asleep. I never knew what sleep deprivation could do to you!!!! Unbearable, and yet we do bear it. My son turns 55 next month and is bright and a wonderful human being!!!! I had a daughter nine years later and it was a totally different experience. Dare I say it was easy? Well, not quite, but so much earies than the first time!!!! Love to you and yours!!!!
Wow! I am in awe of your raw honesty. Wish I knew you when I was going through my first baby days! He had colic and just cried all the time. The new baby smell was vomited breast milk!!!! And I threw up every time I had to change a dirty diaper. My husband left all day every day – also he was a student!!! His sleep was “more important” then mine!!! So he actually slept through the night every night. I did sleep with the baby in bed with me and he survived!!! I would wake up, bring him into bed, let him attach to the breast and immediately fall asleep. I never knew what sleep deprivation could do to you!!!! Unbearable, and yet we do bear it. My son turns 55 next month and is bright and a wonderful human being!!!! I had a daughter nine years later and it was a totally different experience. Dare I say it was easy? Well, not quite, but so much earies than the first time!!!! Love to you and yours!!!!
1. I still one last pair of my mesh panties. My second kid’s 9.
2. With my first, I had sleep deprivation so bad I imagined ants crawling on my bedroom walls.
3. I had PPD with both my kids. We survived.
4. Like many others it sounds like, I read the article and just kept saying “Yep,” “I remember that”, etc. You captured the beautiful, frustrating mess of motherhood perfectly. A lifelong, life-changing catalyst for growth and transformation for all involved. Easier said than done, but always worth the reminder–stay encouraged and show yourself grace!
1. I still one last pair of my mesh panties. My second kid’s 9.
2. With my first, I had sleep deprivation so bad I imagined ants crawling on my bedroom walls.
3. I had PPD with both my kids. We survived.
4. Like many others it sounds like, I read the article and just kept saying “Yep,” “I remember that”, etc. You captured the beautiful, frustrating mess of motherhood perfectly. A lifelong, life-changing catalyst for growth and transformation for all involved. Easier said than done, but always worth the reminder–stay encouraged and show yourself grace!
1. I still one last pair of my mesh panties. My second kid’s 9.
2. With my first, I had sleep deprivation so bad I imagined ants crawling on my bedroom walls.
3. I had PPD with both my kids. We survived.
4. Like many others it sounds like, I read the article and just kept saying “Yep,” “I remember that”, etc. You captured the beautiful, frustrating mess of motherhood perfectly. A lifelong, life-changing catalyst for growth and transformation for all involved. Easier said than done, but always worth the reminder–stay encouraged and show yourself grace!
1. I still one last pair of my mesh panties. My second kid’s 9.
2. With my first, I had sleep deprivation so bad I imagined ants crawling on my bedroom walls.
3. I had PPD with both my kids. We survived.
4. Like many others it sounds like, I read the article and just kept saying “Yep,” “I remember that”, etc. You captured the beautiful, frustrating mess of motherhood perfectly. A lifelong, life-changing catalyst for growth and transformation for all involved. Easier said than done, but always worth the reminder–stay encouraged and show yourself grace!
1. I still one last pair of my mesh panties. My second kid’s 9.
2. With my first, I had sleep deprivation so bad I imagined ants crawling on my bedroom walls.
3. I had PPD with both my kids. We survived.
4. Like many others it sounds like, I read the article and just kept saying “Yep,” “I remember that”, etc. You captured the beautiful, frustrating mess of motherhood perfectly. A lifelong, life-changing catalyst for growth and transformation for all involved. Easier said than done, but always worth the reminder–stay encouraged and show yourself grace!
1. I still one last pair of my mesh panties. My second kid’s 9.
2. With my first, I had sleep deprivation so bad I imagined ants crawling on my bedroom walls.
3. I had PPD with both my kids. We survived.
4. Like many others it sounds like, I read the article and just kept saying “Yep,” “I remember that”, etc. You captured the beautiful, frustrating mess of motherhood perfectly. A lifelong, life-changing catalyst for growth and transformation for all involved. Easier said than done, but always worth the reminder–stay encouraged and show yourself grace!
1. I still one last pair of my mesh panties. My second kid’s 9.
2. With my first, I had sleep deprivation so bad I imagined ants crawling on my bedroom walls.
3. I had PPD with both my kids. We survived.
4. Like many others it sounds like, I read the article and just kept saying “Yep,” “I remember that”, etc. You captured the beautiful, frustrating mess of motherhood perfectly. A lifelong, life-changing catalyst for growth and transformation for all involved. Easier said than done, but always worth the reminder–stay encouraged and show yourself grace!
Thank you for sharing Julie. The days, and then the weeks, and then the years will FLY BY so fast and you will be in my shoes looking back 47 years ago to my first baby and barely being able to recall how young and naïve I was but we all survived! Love, hugs and God’s blessings to you, Steve and your precious little one.
Thank you for sharing Julie. The days, and then the weeks, and then the years will FLY BY so fast and you will be in my shoes looking back 47 years ago to my first baby and barely being able to recall how young and naïve I was but we all survived! Love, hugs and God’s blessings to you, Steve and your precious little one.
Thank you for sharing Julie. The days, and then the weeks, and then the years will FLY BY so fast and you will be in my shoes looking back 47 years ago to my first baby and barely being able to recall how young and naïve I was but we all survived! Love, hugs and God’s blessings to you, Steve and your precious little one.
Thank you for sharing Julie. The days, and then the weeks, and then the years will FLY BY so fast and you will be in my shoes looking back 47 years ago to my first baby and barely being able to recall how young and naïve I was but we all survived! Love, hugs and God’s blessings to you, Steve and your precious little one.
Thank you for sharing Julie. The days, and then the weeks, and then the years will FLY BY so fast and you will be in my shoes looking back 47 years ago to my first baby and barely being able to recall how young and naïve I was but we all survived! Love, hugs and God’s blessings to you, Steve and your precious little one.
Thank you for sharing Julie. The days, and then the weeks, and then the years will FLY BY so fast and you will be in my shoes looking back 47 years ago to my first baby and barely being able to recall how young and naïve I was but we all survived! Love, hugs and God’s blessings to you, Steve and your precious little one.
Thank you for sharing Julie. The days, and then the weeks, and then the years will FLY BY so fast and you will be in my shoes looking back 47 years ago to my first baby and barely being able to recall how young and naïve I was but we all survived! Love, hugs and God’s blessings to you, Steve and your precious little one.
God Bless You and Steve and the Baby. I have no children, but I truly felt the pain and anxiety through your account and reading those of others. I know getting this out and sharing with other mothers will help them and you get through this time. Since I am not a mother and cannot comment on how to get through this, I will focus on the thoughts of you as a person. I have read, followed and admired you for over ten years. You ARE a truly beautiful person, inside and out. I have confidence you will get through the difficult times, just make sure you allow yourself to do just that. You are okay to cry, you are okay to feel these feelings, but you are also a very well loved person who has always given more of herself to others than most. My deepest prayers and good thoughts are with you all.
God Bless You and Steve and the Baby. I have no children, but I truly felt the pain and anxiety through your account and reading those of others. I know getting this out and sharing with other mothers will help them and you get through this time. Since I am not a mother and cannot comment on how to get through this, I will focus on the thoughts of you as a person. I have read, followed and admired you for over ten years. You ARE a truly beautiful person, inside and out. I have confidence you will get through the difficult times, just make sure you allow yourself to do just that. You are okay to cry, you are okay to feel these feelings, but you are also a very well loved person who has always given more of herself to others than most. My deepest prayers and good thoughts are with you all.
God Bless You and Steve and the Baby. I have no children, but I truly felt the pain and anxiety through your account and reading those of others. I know getting this out and sharing with other mothers will help them and you get through this time. Since I am not a mother and cannot comment on how to get through this, I will focus on the thoughts of you as a person. I have read, followed and admired you for over ten years. You ARE a truly beautiful person, inside and out. I have confidence you will get through the difficult times, just make sure you allow yourself to do just that. You are okay to cry, you are okay to feel these feelings, but you are also a very well loved person who has always given more of herself to others than most. My deepest prayers and good thoughts are with you all.
God Bless You and Steve and the Baby. I have no children, but I truly felt the pain and anxiety through your account and reading those of others. I know getting this out and sharing with other mothers will help them and you get through this time. Since I am not a mother and cannot comment on how to get through this, I will focus on the thoughts of you as a person. I have read, followed and admired you for over ten years. You ARE a truly beautiful person, inside and out. I have confidence you will get through the difficult times, just make sure you allow yourself to do just that. You are okay to cry, you are okay to feel these feelings, but you are also a very well loved person who has always given more of herself to others than most. My deepest prayers and good thoughts are with you all.
God Bless You and Steve and the Baby. I have no children, but I truly felt the pain and anxiety through your account and reading those of others. I know getting this out and sharing with other mothers will help them and you get through this time. Since I am not a mother and cannot comment on how to get through this, I will focus on the thoughts of you as a person. I have read, followed and admired you for over ten years. You ARE a truly beautiful person, inside and out. I have confidence you will get through the difficult times, just make sure you allow yourself to do just that. You are okay to cry, you are okay to feel these feelings, but you are also a very well loved person who has always given more of herself to others than most. My deepest prayers and good thoughts are with you all.
God Bless You and Steve and the Baby. I have no children, but I truly felt the pain and anxiety through your account and reading those of others. I know getting this out and sharing with other mothers will help them and you get through this time. Since I am not a mother and cannot comment on how to get through this, I will focus on the thoughts of you as a person. I have read, followed and admired you for over ten years. You ARE a truly beautiful person, inside and out. I have confidence you will get through the difficult times, just make sure you allow yourself to do just that. You are okay to cry, you are okay to feel these feelings, but you are also a very well loved person who has always given more of herself to others than most. My deepest prayers and good thoughts are with you all.
God Bless You and Steve and the Baby. I have no children, but I truly felt the pain and anxiety through your account and reading those of others. I know getting this out and sharing with other mothers will help them and you get through this time. Since I am not a mother and cannot comment on how to get through this, I will focus on the thoughts of you as a person. I have read, followed and admired you for over ten years. You ARE a truly beautiful person, inside and out. I have confidence you will get through the difficult times, just make sure you allow yourself to do just that. You are okay to cry, you are okay to feel these feelings, but you are also a very well loved person who has always given more of herself to others than most. My deepest prayers and good thoughts are with you all.
I just found and read your postpartum story in the Lily and just wanted to say thank you so much for sharing this with the world. It expresses so much of what I was going through after my son was born, and it was like a small weight being lifted (even now 4 years later) to read about someone else going through similar emotions. The world needs more stories like this to be told, to normalize what women go through after a birth. Good luck with everything going forward <3
I just found and read your postpartum story in the Lily and just wanted to say thank you so much for sharing this with the world. It expresses so much of what I was going through after my son was born, and it was like a small weight being lifted (even now 4 years later) to read about someone else going through similar emotions. The world needs more stories like this to be told, to normalize what women go through after a birth. Good luck with everything going forward <3
I just found and read your postpartum story in the Lily and just wanted to say thank you so much for sharing this with the world. It expresses so much of what I was going through after my son was born, and it was like a small weight being lifted (even now 4 years later) to read about someone else going through similar emotions. The world needs more stories like this to be told, to normalize what women go through after a birth. Good luck with everything going forward <3
I just found and read your postpartum story in the Lily and just wanted to say thank you so much for sharing this with the world. It expresses so much of what I was going through after my son was born, and it was like a small weight being lifted (even now 4 years later) to read about someone else going through similar emotions. The world needs more stories like this to be told, to normalize what women go through after a birth. Good luck with everything going forward <3
I just found and read your postpartum story in the Lily and just wanted to say thank you so much for sharing this with the world. It expresses so much of what I was going through after my son was born, and it was like a small weight being lifted (even now 4 years later) to read about someone else going through similar emotions. The world needs more stories like this to be told, to normalize what women go through after a birth. Good luck with everything going forward <3
I just found and read your postpartum story in the Lily and just wanted to say thank you so much for sharing this with the world. It expresses so much of what I was going through after my son was born, and it was like a small weight being lifted (even now 4 years later) to read about someone else going through similar emotions. The world needs more stories like this to be told, to normalize what women go through after a birth. Good luck with everything going forward <3
I just found and read your postpartum story in the Lily and just wanted to say thank you so much for sharing this with the world. It expresses so much of what I was going through after my son was born, and it was like a small weight being lifted (even now 4 years later) to read about someone else going through similar emotions. The world needs more stories like this to be told, to normalize what women go through after a birth. Good luck with everything going forward <3
Your article was in one part heartbreaking— that you felt as you did for that time, and the other part so informative— as you mentioned nobody shares this for all the reasons that you mentioned. It was also Brave. Brave as I’ve come to know you over the many years I’ve followed your work and blog. You have always put yourself out there good, bad and ugly. You showed that art was not easy. You had to work at it. Everyday. I’m assuming that you didn’t expect motherhood to be easy either but clearly from the rawness of your words there were way more than a few surprises. I’m so happy that you have a huge support system in Steve, your mom and friends. You will conquer this one too in true Julie Fei-Fan Balzer style. Bravo sister.
Your article was in one part heartbreaking— that you felt as you did for that time, and the other part so informative— as you mentioned nobody shares this for all the reasons that you mentioned. It was also Brave. Brave as I’ve come to know you over the many years I’ve followed your work and blog. You have always put yourself out there good, bad and ugly. You showed that art was not easy. You had to work at it. Everyday. I’m assuming that you didn’t expect motherhood to be easy either but clearly from the rawness of your words there were way more than a few surprises. I’m so happy that you have a huge support system in Steve, your mom and friends. You will conquer this one too in true Julie Fei-Fan Balzer style. Bravo sister.
Your article was in one part heartbreaking— that you felt as you did for that time, and the other part so informative— as you mentioned nobody shares this for all the reasons that you mentioned. It was also Brave. Brave as I’ve come to know you over the many years I’ve followed your work and blog. You have always put yourself out there good, bad and ugly. You showed that art was not easy. You had to work at it. Everyday. I’m assuming that you didn’t expect motherhood to be easy either but clearly from the rawness of your words there were way more than a few surprises. I’m so happy that you have a huge support system in Steve, your mom and friends. You will conquer this one too in true Julie Fei-Fan Balzer style. Bravo sister.
Your article was in one part heartbreaking— that you felt as you did for that time, and the other part so informative— as you mentioned nobody shares this for all the reasons that you mentioned. It was also Brave. Brave as I’ve come to know you over the many years I’ve followed your work and blog. You have always put yourself out there good, bad and ugly. You showed that art was not easy. You had to work at it. Everyday. I’m assuming that you didn’t expect motherhood to be easy either but clearly from the rawness of your words there were way more than a few surprises. I’m so happy that you have a huge support system in Steve, your mom and friends. You will conquer this one too in true Julie Fei-Fan Balzer style. Bravo sister.
Your article was in one part heartbreaking— that you felt as you did for that time, and the other part so informative— as you mentioned nobody shares this for all the reasons that you mentioned. It was also Brave. Brave as I’ve come to know you over the many years I’ve followed your work and blog. You have always put yourself out there good, bad and ugly. You showed that art was not easy. You had to work at it. Everyday. I’m assuming that you didn’t expect motherhood to be easy either but clearly from the rawness of your words there were way more than a few surprises. I’m so happy that you have a huge support system in Steve, your mom and friends. You will conquer this one too in true Julie Fei-Fan Balzer style. Bravo sister.
Your article was in one part heartbreaking— that you felt as you did for that time, and the other part so informative— as you mentioned nobody shares this for all the reasons that you mentioned. It was also Brave. Brave as I’ve come to know you over the many years I’ve followed your work and blog. You have always put yourself out there good, bad and ugly. You showed that art was not easy. You had to work at it. Everyday. I’m assuming that you didn’t expect motherhood to be easy either but clearly from the rawness of your words there were way more than a few surprises. I’m so happy that you have a huge support system in Steve, your mom and friends. You will conquer this one too in true Julie Fei-Fan Balzer style. Bravo sister.
Your article was in one part heartbreaking— that you felt as you did for that time, and the other part so informative— as you mentioned nobody shares this for all the reasons that you mentioned. It was also Brave. Brave as I’ve come to know you over the many years I’ve followed your work and blog. You have always put yourself out there good, bad and ugly. You showed that art was not easy. You had to work at it. Everyday. I’m assuming that you didn’t expect motherhood to be easy either but clearly from the rawness of your words there were way more than a few surprises. I’m so happy that you have a huge support system in Steve, your mom and friends. You will conquer this one too in true Julie Fei-Fan Balzer style. Bravo sister.
I wish I had journaled after having my kids. I 100% hear all this and more. My kids are 3& 5 and the sleep depravity doesn’t end for me. I have just learned to take a 5 minute nap in the shower. Hang in there though it does get easier the breast feeding while miraclous is also awful!!!!
I wish I had journaled after having my kids. I 100% hear all this and more. My kids are 3& 5 and the sleep depravity doesn’t end for me. I have just learned to take a 5 minute nap in the shower. Hang in there though it does get easier the breast feeding while miraclous is also awful!!!!
I wish I had journaled after having my kids. I 100% hear all this and more. My kids are 3& 5 and the sleep depravity doesn’t end for me. I have just learned to take a 5 minute nap in the shower. Hang in there though it does get easier the breast feeding while miraclous is also awful!!!!
I wish I had journaled after having my kids. I 100% hear all this and more. My kids are 3& 5 and the sleep depravity doesn’t end for me. I have just learned to take a 5 minute nap in the shower. Hang in there though it does get easier the breast feeding while miraclous is also awful!!!!
I wish I had journaled after having my kids. I 100% hear all this and more. My kids are 3& 5 and the sleep depravity doesn’t end for me. I have just learned to take a 5 minute nap in the shower. Hang in there though it does get easier the breast feeding while miraclous is also awful!!!!
I wish I had journaled after having my kids. I 100% hear all this and more. My kids are 3& 5 and the sleep depravity doesn’t end for me. I have just learned to take a 5 minute nap in the shower. Hang in there though it does get easier the breast feeding while miraclous is also awful!!!!
I wish I had journaled after having my kids. I 100% hear all this and more. My kids are 3& 5 and the sleep depravity doesn’t end for me. I have just learned to take a 5 minute nap in the shower. Hang in there though it does get easier the breast feeding while miraclous is also awful!!!!
Oh my gosh Julie, your writings brought back so many memories that I have somehow repressed. I remember thinking over and over when Jeff (my husband) was near me “please don’t touch me, please don’t touch me, please don’t touch me.” I just wanted my life and my own body back. It takes a long time. But it does happen. Know you are not alone. Thanks for your writings, your vulnerability, and your being. Sending you strength and love. — Jessica
Oh my gosh Julie, your writings brought back so many memories that I have somehow repressed. I remember thinking over and over when Jeff (my husband) was near me “please don’t touch me, please don’t touch me, please don’t touch me.” I just wanted my life and my own body back. It takes a long time. But it does happen. Know you are not alone. Thanks for your writings, your vulnerability, and your being. Sending you strength and love. — Jessica
Oh my gosh Julie, your writings brought back so many memories that I have somehow repressed. I remember thinking over and over when Jeff (my husband) was near me “please don’t touch me, please don’t touch me, please don’t touch me.” I just wanted my life and my own body back. It takes a long time. But it does happen. Know you are not alone. Thanks for your writings, your vulnerability, and your being. Sending you strength and love. — Jessica
Oh my gosh Julie, your writings brought back so many memories that I have somehow repressed. I remember thinking over and over when Jeff (my husband) was near me “please don’t touch me, please don’t touch me, please don’t touch me.” I just wanted my life and my own body back. It takes a long time. But it does happen. Know you are not alone. Thanks for your writings, your vulnerability, and your being. Sending you strength and love. — Jessica
Oh my gosh Julie, your writings brought back so many memories that I have somehow repressed. I remember thinking over and over when Jeff (my husband) was near me “please don’t touch me, please don’t touch me, please don’t touch me.” I just wanted my life and my own body back. It takes a long time. But it does happen. Know you are not alone. Thanks for your writings, your vulnerability, and your being. Sending you strength and love. — Jessica
Oh my gosh Julie, your writings brought back so many memories that I have somehow repressed. I remember thinking over and over when Jeff (my husband) was near me “please don’t touch me, please don’t touch me, please don’t touch me.” I just wanted my life and my own body back. It takes a long time. But it does happen. Know you are not alone. Thanks for your writings, your vulnerability, and your being. Sending you strength and love. — Jessica
Oh my gosh Julie, your writings brought back so many memories that I have somehow repressed. I remember thinking over and over when Jeff (my husband) was near me “please don’t touch me, please don’t touch me, please don’t touch me.” I just wanted my life and my own body back. It takes a long time. But it does happen. Know you are not alone. Thanks for your writings, your vulnerability, and your being. Sending you strength and love. — Jessica
You are awesome! Things will continue to be better and better. So, keep going. Feel it! then let it go! Blessings to you all!
You are awesome! Things will continue to be better and better. So, keep going. Feel it! then let it go! Blessings to you all!
You are awesome! Things will continue to be better and better. So, keep going. Feel it! then let it go! Blessings to you all!
You are awesome! Things will continue to be better and better. So, keep going. Feel it! then let it go! Blessings to you all!
You are awesome! Things will continue to be better and better. So, keep going. Feel it! then let it go! Blessings to you all!
You are awesome! Things will continue to be better and better. So, keep going. Feel it! then let it go! Blessings to you all!
You are awesome! Things will continue to be better and better. So, keep going. Feel it! then let it go! Blessings to you all!
Reading this like deja vu from just a short while ago…..Julie worth a read
https://www.today.com/parents/msnbc-s-katy-tur-c-section-difficulty-breastfeeding-t162451
Reading this like deja vu from just a short while ago…..Julie worth a read
https://www.today.com/parents/msnbc-s-katy-tur-c-section-difficulty-breastfeeding-t162451
Reading this like deja vu from just a short while ago…..Julie worth a read
https://www.today.com/parents/msnbc-s-katy-tur-c-section-difficulty-breastfeeding-t162451
Reading this like deja vu from just a short while ago…..Julie worth a read
https://www.today.com/parents/msnbc-s-katy-tur-c-section-difficulty-breastfeeding-t162451
Reading this like deja vu from just a short while ago…..Julie worth a read
https://www.today.com/parents/msnbc-s-katy-tur-c-section-difficulty-breastfeeding-t162451
Reading this like deja vu from just a short while ago…..Julie worth a read
https://www.today.com/parents/msnbc-s-katy-tur-c-section-difficulty-breastfeeding-t162451
Reading this like deja vu from just a short while ago…..Julie worth a read
https://www.today.com/parents/msnbc-s-katy-tur-c-section-difficulty-breastfeeding-t162451
This is an incredible journal. So raw, so real, so remarkable! Thanks for the honest reflection. It’s much better as time goes on. Enjoy each part of motherhood. Even the gritty parts. Creating an appreciation journal will help remind your mind there are many blessings every moment of every day. It will help uplift your spirit! Sending you a huge hug!
This is an incredible journal. So raw, so real, so remarkable! Thanks for the honest reflection. It’s much better as time goes on. Enjoy each part of motherhood. Even the gritty parts. Creating an appreciation journal will help remind your mind there are many blessings every moment of every day. It will help uplift your spirit! Sending you a huge hug!
This is an incredible journal. So raw, so real, so remarkable! Thanks for the honest reflection. It’s much better as time goes on. Enjoy each part of motherhood. Even the gritty parts. Creating an appreciation journal will help remind your mind there are many blessings every moment of every day. It will help uplift your spirit! Sending you a huge hug!
This is an incredible journal. So raw, so real, so remarkable! Thanks for the honest reflection. It’s much better as time goes on. Enjoy each part of motherhood. Even the gritty parts. Creating an appreciation journal will help remind your mind there are many blessings every moment of every day. It will help uplift your spirit! Sending you a huge hug!
This is an incredible journal. So raw, so real, so remarkable! Thanks for the honest reflection. It’s much better as time goes on. Enjoy each part of motherhood. Even the gritty parts. Creating an appreciation journal will help remind your mind there are many blessings every moment of every day. It will help uplift your spirit! Sending you a huge hug!
This is an incredible journal. So raw, so real, so remarkable! Thanks for the honest reflection. It’s much better as time goes on. Enjoy each part of motherhood. Even the gritty parts. Creating an appreciation journal will help remind your mind there are many blessings every moment of every day. It will help uplift your spirit! Sending you a huge hug!
This is an incredible journal. So raw, so real, so remarkable! Thanks for the honest reflection. It’s much better as time goes on. Enjoy each part of motherhood. Even the gritty parts. Creating an appreciation journal will help remind your mind there are many blessings every moment of every day. It will help uplift your spirit! Sending you a huge hug!
Julie, thank you for recording with honesty your first month of motherhood. I wish I had been challenged to journal my experience back then. I had a remarkably good pregnancy, save the last 6 weeks of being a whale, and gave birth to my son at 38 by emergency C-section! It was a roller coaster from there. Baby couldn’t latch on. Lactation specialist had a family emergency and had to leave after the first day of training my son to latch on. Milk not coming in. No pump. PPD like crazy. Crying. Crying. Crying. Husband crying. PPD meds. Zombie land. Guilt about giving up on breastfeeding…still to this day. And he’ll be 18 in April! So. Really. It’ll be fine. Seriously. Go easy on yourself. This is probably the biggest life change you’ll ever have. You can do this. Do not hesitate to see a counselor. You are not alone. Much love and empathy.
Julie, thank you for recording with honesty your first month of motherhood. I wish I had been challenged to journal my experience back then. I had a remarkably good pregnancy, save the last 6 weeks of being a whale, and gave birth to my son at 38 by emergency C-section! It was a roller coaster from there. Baby couldn’t latch on. Lactation specialist had a family emergency and had to leave after the first day of training my son to latch on. Milk not coming in. No pump. PPD like crazy. Crying. Crying. Crying. Husband crying. PPD meds. Zombie land. Guilt about giving up on breastfeeding…still to this day. And he’ll be 18 in April! So. Really. It’ll be fine. Seriously. Go easy on yourself. This is probably the biggest life change you’ll ever have. You can do this. Do not hesitate to see a counselor. You are not alone. Much love and empathy.
Julie, thank you for recording with honesty your first month of motherhood. I wish I had been challenged to journal my experience back then. I had a remarkably good pregnancy, save the last 6 weeks of being a whale, and gave birth to my son at 38 by emergency C-section! It was a roller coaster from there. Baby couldn’t latch on. Lactation specialist had a family emergency and had to leave after the first day of training my son to latch on. Milk not coming in. No pump. PPD like crazy. Crying. Crying. Crying. Husband crying. PPD meds. Zombie land. Guilt about giving up on breastfeeding…still to this day. And he’ll be 18 in April! So. Really. It’ll be fine. Seriously. Go easy on yourself. This is probably the biggest life change you’ll ever have. You can do this. Do not hesitate to see a counselor. You are not alone. Much love and empathy.
Julie, thank you for recording with honesty your first month of motherhood. I wish I had been challenged to journal my experience back then. I had a remarkably good pregnancy, save the last 6 weeks of being a whale, and gave birth to my son at 38 by emergency C-section! It was a roller coaster from there. Baby couldn’t latch on. Lactation specialist had a family emergency and had to leave after the first day of training my son to latch on. Milk not coming in. No pump. PPD like crazy. Crying. Crying. Crying. Husband crying. PPD meds. Zombie land. Guilt about giving up on breastfeeding…still to this day. And he’ll be 18 in April! So. Really. It’ll be fine. Seriously. Go easy on yourself. This is probably the biggest life change you’ll ever have. You can do this. Do not hesitate to see a counselor. You are not alone. Much love and empathy.
Julie, thank you for recording with honesty your first month of motherhood. I wish I had been challenged to journal my experience back then. I had a remarkably good pregnancy, save the last 6 weeks of being a whale, and gave birth to my son at 38 by emergency C-section! It was a roller coaster from there. Baby couldn’t latch on. Lactation specialist had a family emergency and had to leave after the first day of training my son to latch on. Milk not coming in. No pump. PPD like crazy. Crying. Crying. Crying. Husband crying. PPD meds. Zombie land. Guilt about giving up on breastfeeding…still to this day. And he’ll be 18 in April! So. Really. It’ll be fine. Seriously. Go easy on yourself. This is probably the biggest life change you’ll ever have. You can do this. Do not hesitate to see a counselor. You are not alone. Much love and empathy.
Julie, thank you for recording with honesty your first month of motherhood. I wish I had been challenged to journal my experience back then. I had a remarkably good pregnancy, save the last 6 weeks of being a whale, and gave birth to my son at 38 by emergency C-section! It was a roller coaster from there. Baby couldn’t latch on. Lactation specialist had a family emergency and had to leave after the first day of training my son to latch on. Milk not coming in. No pump. PPD like crazy. Crying. Crying. Crying. Husband crying. PPD meds. Zombie land. Guilt about giving up on breastfeeding…still to this day. And he’ll be 18 in April! So. Really. It’ll be fine. Seriously. Go easy on yourself. This is probably the biggest life change you’ll ever have. You can do this. Do not hesitate to see a counselor. You are not alone. Much love and empathy.
Julie, thank you for recording with honesty your first month of motherhood. I wish I had been challenged to journal my experience back then. I had a remarkably good pregnancy, save the last 6 weeks of being a whale, and gave birth to my son at 38 by emergency C-section! It was a roller coaster from there. Baby couldn’t latch on. Lactation specialist had a family emergency and had to leave after the first day of training my son to latch on. Milk not coming in. No pump. PPD like crazy. Crying. Crying. Crying. Husband crying. PPD meds. Zombie land. Guilt about giving up on breastfeeding…still to this day. And he’ll be 18 in April! So. Really. It’ll be fine. Seriously. Go easy on yourself. This is probably the biggest life change you’ll ever have. You can do this. Do not hesitate to see a counselor. You are not alone. Much love and empathy.
Ah my dear, sounds like new motherhood to me. It’s one of the 2 hardest times I ever went thru. Do get help, it doesn’t have to be this way. You need more time alone, not sleeping. I don’t know if it’s possible for you to afford it but if so GET SOMEONE to watch baby 4 hrs a day 3 times a week for a while. You will find yourself again. If all else fails, borrow the money. I truly wish someone had told me this. My kids were born before the days of maternity leave. Went back to work 5 days after the birth of my first child. 45 years later, I wish I hadn’t. I too was self employed. I was the quintessence hot mess. That kid didn’t sleep more than 4 hrs a day till he was 12…
There is a homeopathic remedy for colic at good drugstores. IT WORKS. At least some of the time, and makes a huge difference. Talk to your OB, too, about something for you. And know, this too will get better. You are in my heart.
Ah my dear, sounds like new motherhood to me. It’s one of the 2 hardest times I ever went thru. Do get help, it doesn’t have to be this way. You need more time alone, not sleeping. I don’t know if it’s possible for you to afford it but if so GET SOMEONE to watch baby 4 hrs a day 3 times a week for a while. You will find yourself again. If all else fails, borrow the money. I truly wish someone had told me this. My kids were born before the days of maternity leave. Went back to work 5 days after the birth of my first child. 45 years later, I wish I hadn’t. I too was self employed. I was the quintessence hot mess. That kid didn’t sleep more than 4 hrs a day till he was 12…
There is a homeopathic remedy for colic at good drugstores. IT WORKS. At least some of the time, and makes a huge difference. Talk to your OB, too, about something for you. And know, this too will get better. You are in my heart.
Ah my dear, sounds like new motherhood to me. It’s one of the 2 hardest times I ever went thru. Do get help, it doesn’t have to be this way. You need more time alone, not sleeping. I don’t know if it’s possible for you to afford it but if so GET SOMEONE to watch baby 4 hrs a day 3 times a week for a while. You will find yourself again. If all else fails, borrow the money. I truly wish someone had told me this. My kids were born before the days of maternity leave. Went back to work 5 days after the birth of my first child. 45 years later, I wish I hadn’t. I too was self employed. I was the quintessence hot mess. That kid didn’t sleep more than 4 hrs a day till he was 12…
There is a homeopathic remedy for colic at good drugstores. IT WORKS. At least some of the time, and makes a huge difference. Talk to your OB, too, about something for you. And know, this too will get better. You are in my heart.
Ah my dear, sounds like new motherhood to me. It’s one of the 2 hardest times I ever went thru. Do get help, it doesn’t have to be this way. You need more time alone, not sleeping. I don’t know if it’s possible for you to afford it but if so GET SOMEONE to watch baby 4 hrs a day 3 times a week for a while. You will find yourself again. If all else fails, borrow the money. I truly wish someone had told me this. My kids were born before the days of maternity leave. Went back to work 5 days after the birth of my first child. 45 years later, I wish I hadn’t. I too was self employed. I was the quintessence hot mess. That kid didn’t sleep more than 4 hrs a day till he was 12…
There is a homeopathic remedy for colic at good drugstores. IT WORKS. At least some of the time, and makes a huge difference. Talk to your OB, too, about something for you. And know, this too will get better. You are in my heart.
Ah my dear, sounds like new motherhood to me. It’s one of the 2 hardest times I ever went thru. Do get help, it doesn’t have to be this way. You need more time alone, not sleeping. I don’t know if it’s possible for you to afford it but if so GET SOMEONE to watch baby 4 hrs a day 3 times a week for a while. You will find yourself again. If all else fails, borrow the money. I truly wish someone had told me this. My kids were born before the days of maternity leave. Went back to work 5 days after the birth of my first child. 45 years later, I wish I hadn’t. I too was self employed. I was the quintessence hot mess. That kid didn’t sleep more than 4 hrs a day till he was 12…
There is a homeopathic remedy for colic at good drugstores. IT WORKS. At least some of the time, and makes a huge difference. Talk to your OB, too, about something for you. And know, this too will get better. You are in my heart.
Ah my dear, sounds like new motherhood to me. It’s one of the 2 hardest times I ever went thru. Do get help, it doesn’t have to be this way. You need more time alone, not sleeping. I don’t know if it’s possible for you to afford it but if so GET SOMEONE to watch baby 4 hrs a day 3 times a week for a while. You will find yourself again. If all else fails, borrow the money. I truly wish someone had told me this. My kids were born before the days of maternity leave. Went back to work 5 days after the birth of my first child. 45 years later, I wish I hadn’t. I too was self employed. I was the quintessence hot mess. That kid didn’t sleep more than 4 hrs a day till he was 12…
There is a homeopathic remedy for colic at good drugstores. IT WORKS. At least some of the time, and makes a huge difference. Talk to your OB, too, about something for you. And know, this too will get better. You are in my heart.
Ah my dear, sounds like new motherhood to me. It’s one of the 2 hardest times I ever went thru. Do get help, it doesn’t have to be this way. You need more time alone, not sleeping. I don’t know if it’s possible for you to afford it but if so GET SOMEONE to watch baby 4 hrs a day 3 times a week for a while. You will find yourself again. If all else fails, borrow the money. I truly wish someone had told me this. My kids were born before the days of maternity leave. Went back to work 5 days after the birth of my first child. 45 years later, I wish I hadn’t. I too was self employed. I was the quintessence hot mess. That kid didn’t sleep more than 4 hrs a day till he was 12…
There is a homeopathic remedy for colic at good drugstores. IT WORKS. At least some of the time, and makes a huge difference. Talk to your OB, too, about something for you. And know, this too will get better. You are in my heart.
Forgot the most important tip!
If you have a non stacked washer dryer, topurn on the dryer, put baby in a safe carrier/whatever on top for 10 minuets or longer. Worked wonders for my grand daughter. The only thing that did.
Forgot the most important tip!
If you have a non stacked washer dryer, topurn on the dryer, put baby in a safe carrier/whatever on top for 10 minuets or longer. Worked wonders for my grand daughter. The only thing that did.
Forgot the most important tip!
If you have a non stacked washer dryer, topurn on the dryer, put baby in a safe carrier/whatever on top for 10 minuets or longer. Worked wonders for my grand daughter. The only thing that did.
Forgot the most important tip!
If you have a non stacked washer dryer, topurn on the dryer, put baby in a safe carrier/whatever on top for 10 minuets or longer. Worked wonders for my grand daughter. The only thing that did.
Forgot the most important tip!
If you have a non stacked washer dryer, topurn on the dryer, put baby in a safe carrier/whatever on top for 10 minuets or longer. Worked wonders for my grand daughter. The only thing that did.
Forgot the most important tip!
If you have a non stacked washer dryer, topurn on the dryer, put baby in a safe carrier/whatever on top for 10 minuets or longer. Worked wonders for my grand daughter. The only thing that did.
Forgot the most important tip!
If you have a non stacked washer dryer, topurn on the dryer, put baby in a safe carrier/whatever on top for 10 minuets or longer. Worked wonders for my grand daughter. The only thing that did.