I have a problem designing for contests.

I was thinking about this in regards to the quilt I just finished making for the Empire Quilters’ Urban Inspirations Show and I spent much of yesterday working on a layout for Creating Keepsakes’ Hall of Fame. Over the last month, I’ve also entered four or five other contests. But, I’ve been dissatisfied with my work for all of them.

Why?

I think that when I design for a contest, I’m too busy trying to (1) be what I think they want, and (2) impress them — blow them away — and I get lost in the meantime. I am reminded of the famous opening song from A Chorus Line, which has resonated with me in my theatrical life for years. Here’s an excerpt:

Who am I anyway?

Am I my resume?

That is a picture of a person I don’t know.

What does he want from me?

What should I try to be?

So many faces all around, and here we go.

I need this job, oh God, I need this show.

In contrast, I found this quote by Ralph Waldo Emerson:

“Insist on yourself; never imitate. Your own gift you can present every moment with the cumulative force of a whole life’s cultivation; but of the adopted talent of another you have only an extemporaneous half possession… Do that which is assigned to you, and you cannot hope too much or dare too much.”

And I am reminded that I should let “me” be more present. I guess the question is, why do I think that “me” is not enough?

Julie Fei-Fan Balzer

Based outside of Boston, Julie Fei-Fan Balzer is a painter, printmaker, and collage artist who constructs vibrant compositions. Her artwork investigates the interplay of identity and perception, inviting viewers to take a longer look. Julie works in layers, both physically and metaphorically, exploring what is visible and what is concealed. Passionate about connecting with and inspiring other artists, she shares her expertise through in-person workshops and her online classroom at MyArtPractice.com. Julie's achievements include high-profile clients, multiple publications - including her book, “Carve Stamp Play” - and exhibits in New York City and throughout Massachusetts. She is a graduate of Brown University.

12 thoughts on “Designing for a Contest

  • Such deep thoughts! Waldo’s quote is so right – and your work is soooo amazing- you should really be happy with it! You have one little Kraut-Groupie – LOL!!!! But I can see it – I do have those problems iwth my DT-Stuff – I never feel like this things are good and I’m shuddering to send it in. More confidence- good goal – LOL! HUgs

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  • Such deep thoughts! Waldo’s quote is so right – and your work is soooo amazing- you should really be happy with it! You have one little Kraut-Groupie – LOL!!!! But I can see it – I do have those problems iwth my DT-Stuff – I never feel like this things are good and I’m shuddering to send it in. More confidence- good goal – LOL! HUgs

    Reply
  • Such deep thoughts! Waldo’s quote is so right – and your work is soooo amazing- you should really be happy with it! You have one little Kraut-Groupie – LOL!!!! But I can see it – I do have those problems iwth my DT-Stuff – I never feel like this things are good and I’m shuddering to send it in. More confidence- good goal – LOL! HUgs

    Reply
  • Such deep thoughts! Waldo’s quote is so right – and your work is soooo amazing- you should really be happy with it! You have one little Kraut-Groupie – LOL!!!! But I can see it – I do have those problems iwth my DT-Stuff – I never feel like this things are good and I’m shuddering to send it in. More confidence- good goal – LOL! HUgs

    Reply
  • wow… you’re right. Really deep thoughts. I think a bit too deep for me this early in the morning! seriously, I think we all yearn for acceptance, which is why we try to be what we think others want us to be, not who we really are…. KWIM?

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  • wow… you’re right. Really deep thoughts. I think a bit too deep for me this early in the morning! seriously, I think we all yearn for acceptance, which is why we try to be what we think others want us to be, not who we really are…. KWIM?

    Reply
  • wow… you’re right. Really deep thoughts. I think a bit too deep for me this early in the morning! seriously, I think we all yearn for acceptance, which is why we try to be what we think others want us to be, not who we really are…. KWIM?

    Reply
  • wow… you’re right. Really deep thoughts. I think a bit too deep for me this early in the morning! seriously, I think we all yearn for acceptance, which is why we try to be what we think others want us to be, not who we really are…. KWIM?

    Reply
  • I totally get that, I’m the same way. After the excitement wore off when I got my first DT gig, panic set in! LOL But I just try to be myself. These quotes are great, in fact I think I’m gonna steal them for a page, or two! 🙂
    Your work is really great!!

    Reply
  • I totally get that, I’m the same way. After the excitement wore off when I got my first DT gig, panic set in! LOL But I just try to be myself. These quotes are great, in fact I think I’m gonna steal them for a page, or two! 🙂
    Your work is really great!!

    Reply
  • I totally get that, I’m the same way. After the excitement wore off when I got my first DT gig, panic set in! LOL But I just try to be myself. These quotes are great, in fact I think I’m gonna steal them for a page, or two! 🙂
    Your work is really great!!

    Reply
  • I totally get that, I’m the same way. After the excitement wore off when I got my first DT gig, panic set in! LOL But I just try to be myself. These quotes are great, in fact I think I’m gonna steal them for a page, or two! 🙂
    Your work is really great!!

    Reply

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